Just Tell My Love Story

I read. I read - I decided to just tell my love story :). I'm 17 years old and I've been with my boyfriend since I was 13, just then I was in the stage to catch as much as possible at this age, obviously a lot of hormones hit us (he is now 21 then he was 17) I became very attached to him and I loved him if you can love at all at this age. A month after we got together we explained that we hate infidelity, lies and everything that everyone hates .. YES, but he really never cheated on me, I obviously formed myself as a very attractive girl - respectively, there were many attractive boys around me. He was crazy that I was going out with them and the like, and he was most annoyed that I was going out with his brother. One day he sent me to us because it was late and the next day my friend broke me because he decided that something had happened between me and his brother. I was in a lot of pain, I cried all the time and his brother was always by my side. He took me to the villa to forget but I did not forget and he admitted to me that many. he liked me. Then I went crazy and the next day we went back to Sofia (I couldn't sit alone with my best friend, the brother of the love of my life, and I know what he feels for me) I did my best to push him away but not to let him go. lose, and at the same time reunite with your loved one. Well, who has enough will and patience - succeeds. We got together, but he wouldn't let me see his brother. It was hard for me, but I swallowed it too. About 2 years passed - only with him, I never went out at all, only in a teacher and some people and then - with my man. Yes, but I lost the desire for sex, even for hugs - I felt intolerable. This winter he left for 2 months somewhere and I started going out with my old company again and .. THE BROTHER of discord: D there were scandals, and even their mother intervened, explaining that if I was with his brother, he should even be happier because he would watch what I was doing. They reached this consensus, but I didn't want it anymore and decided I was old enough to go wild now. Parties, nonsense started ... I cheated on him, I was sick of tearing him up. After a few days he found out why I broke him - he was furious and I felt even worse ... we fought, we went to the store we had a drink (and in principle we do not drink ..) we got drunk and I do not remember how he got into us in the morning, we talked and got along. Everything went perfectly for 1 month and then he found out about another infidelity of mine (and I just started to regain my feelings and now they were in their whirlwind) and to clarify - before I just pressed and kissed with some ... and that was sex: and I miss him so much, I go crazy now when he's not with me, I love him and I'm sure now, but ... I don't know .. I have to study for another 2 years, and then I don't think to study either in BG or where is he, and .. this worries me, because if one cools down to the other again - it will certainly be the end. But for now, even with each passing day, our desire for each other grows ^^