Just A Story

Hello!! I'm not looking for advice ... Let me just write my story too. I had a friend with whom we had a relationship for 4 years. For these 4 years we gave birth to a beautiful boy who is now 3 years old. A year ago we broke up with him, due to the fact that he decided to find a mistress ... I will save many things because everyone knows what happens in most cases. This was not his first infidelity, but I kept closing my eyes. He called me rubbish ..., he cursed me and others like that (I don't even want to remember). He had told me that he loved this girl very much and was ready for anything for her. OK. I packed my bags and we went out with the child and went home to my parents. And less than two days had passed since we packed our bags and she was already asleep in my bed. I learned from people that it is not a commodity (but he chose it), to him I am the garbage, and she is the right choice. I went through all this very hard. In less than 2 weeks I managed to set a record for losing weight (15 kg). Some time after the separation, I decided to try to make a new relationship ... But it did not last long only 2 months. Something had died inside me. Besides, the ex-girlfriend had told the new boy that she might be pregnant. But the interesting thing is that he kept calling me and her at the same time. Naturally, I withdrew. Just in 4-5 months, two such cases came to me in more. After a while I found out from third parties (my best friend) that the latter was talking about me, that I was looking for a man to look after my child .... When I heard this, I was furious. I told him I didn't want him to know me, that I no longer exist for him and that when he sees me somewhere I just want him to pass me by, because for me he is nothing anymore. We meet quite often and let me tell you, I really continue to be a stranger to me. He asked why I was angry, but I promised to be fair and not to interfere with the people who told me. After this second, a boy appeared with whom we worked until recently together in a company. We were able to get closer very quickly, both intimately and spiritually. He left 3 months ago. I don't think I'll be sick, but to tell you for the first time since my ex-husband, I felt something for another person (my heart was pounding). I started smiling. I thought that after he left we would not contact, but it was not so ... There were moments when he called me or sent me text messages for a whole week and the next week there was complete silence. even when I called on the phone, he would either not pick me up or drop me off. Even if we went out for coffee we hid ...!?!?! I didn't understand that. Although, let me tell you lately, it was quite difficult to get him to go out for coffee, let alone see each other ... I finally realized that he lied to me. to tell you a rather minor lie, it was enough for me to text him that I want him to delete all my numbers from his phone. He said ok and that's it. now for 3 weeks we have not encountered anything. Then I tried to call him the first time he said that I was sweet and did not want to talk to such people and then he stopped picking up my phone. I texted him several times to ask him how he was and that was it. I thought that if I didn't see or hear it, it would pass quickly. I thought I didn't have the same feelings I once had, that my husband managed to kill them with his performances because I was so hurt. But this little one managed to snatch from me the few feelings that were left for my husband and managed to settle permanently in my heart ... Unfortunately. I find myself thinking about him all the time (it's most noticeable when I'm alone). When I deal with the child I do not remember. However, it is at the top of the table and no one but no one can move it from there. I know that I will pass for this boy ... I am sure because I already have experience and I would say that no matter how much I have feelings for a person, no matter how much it hurts me, then I would not mind someone trampling me or being play with me nor lie to me. I would say that if I had to choose I would sit alone .. But this little one managed to snatch from me the few feelings that were left for my husband and managed to settle permanently in my heart ... Unfortunately. I find myself thinking about him all the time (it's most noticeable when I'm alone). When I deal with the child I do not remember. However, it is at the top of the table and no one but no one can move it from there. I know that I will pass for this boy ... I am sure because I already have experience and I would say that no matter how much I have feelings for a person, no matter how much it hurts me, then I would not mind someone trampling me or being play with me nor lie to me. I would say that if I had to choose I would sit alone .. But this little one managed to snatch from me the few feelings that were left for my husband and managed to settle permanently in my heart ... Unfortunately. I find myself thinking about him all the time (it's most noticeable when I'm alone). When I deal with the child I do not remember. However, it is at the top of the table and no one but no one can move it from there. I know that I will pass for this boy ... I am sure because I already have experience and I would say that no matter how much I have feelings for a person, no matter how much it hurts me, then I would not mind someone trampling me or being play with me nor lie to me. I would say that if I had to choose I would sit alone .. However, it is at the top of the table and no one but no one can move it from there. I know that I will pass for this boy ... I am sure because I already have experience and I would say that no matter how much I have feelings for a person, no matter how much it hurts me, then I would not mind someone trampling me or being play with me, nor lie to me. I would say that if I had to choose I would sit alone .. However, it is at the top of the table and no one but no one can move it from there. I know that I will pass for this boy ... I am sure because I already have experience and I would say that no matter how much I have feelings for a person, no matter how much it hurts me, then I would not mind someone trampling me or being play with me nor lie to me. I would say that if I had to choose I would sit alone ..