It's Not Infidelity - I'm Only Married On Paper. But The Children?

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Hello, I have been married since I was 19 years old. I am now 37 and have two sons, aged 18 and 14. My husband and I have not been married for a long time, the marriage has remained only on paper - we just live in an apartment and take care of our children. There is no intimacy between us maybe 6-7 years-any feelings dead-we don't even hate each other. We don't fight anymore, we don't communicate much, we just let go of the flow we are used to. I even think he guesses I'm not alone. Isn't it the most natural desire of a person to be loved, to love? I can't do without friendship, understanding, respect and tenderness. I have a serious relationship with a man with whom we share all of the above. His marital status is almost the same - they are even already separated. He has a daughter at 14. That's how we got to know each other and became attached to each other, that when we stay longer separated the absence is painful. We see each other almost every day - it may be 10 minutes after work, but we always find time to at least take a look ...

And so for 5 years. We love each other, we understand each other, we are just ourselves when we are together. We know that this is not a temporary attraction, but a mature love. He expects me to take the step to get together but ... I've been thinking about divorce for two years, but I can't do it because of the children ... Even though they are big, I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ... We see each other almost every day - it may be 10 minutes after work, but we always find time to at least take a look ... And so for 5 years. We love each other, we understand each other, we are just ourselves when we are together. We know that this is not a temporary attraction, but a mature love. He expects me to take the step to get together but ... I've been thinking about divorce for two years, but I can't do it because of the children ... Even though they are big, I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ...

We see each other almost every day - it may be 10 minutes after work, but we always find time to at least take a look ... And so for 5 years. We love each other, we understand each other, we are just ourselves when we are together. We know that this is not a temporary attraction, but a mature love. He expects me to take the step to get together but ... I've been thinking about divorce for two years, but I can't do it because of the children ... Even though they are big, I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we love ... We love each other, we understand each other, we are just ourselves when we are together. We know that this is not a temporary attraction, but a mature love. He expects me to take the step to get together but ... I've been thinking about divorce for two years, but I can't do it because of the children ... Even though they are big, I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ... We love each other, we understand each other, we are just ourselves when we are together. We know that this is not a temporary attraction, but a mature love. He expects me to take the step to get together but ...

I've been thinking about divorce for two years, but I can't do it because of the children ... Even though they are big, I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ... but I can't do it because of the children .. Even though they are big I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ... but I can't do it because of the children .. Even though they are big I know it will be a shock for them. But on the other hand, I want to have another child ... I know it's not too late, and I really want it. We want to have a child with my friend. And I don't know if it's worth it, because of this love and a new life, to hurt my big boys ... It doesn't give me a heart ... And I want that unborn baby so much from the man we make love to ...

Last Updated
August 22, 2020
Author:
rroochy

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