It's Like An Enchanted Circle...

It was a while for a man to be "in love," and everything was supposed to be great... But... It happened that we broke up, not so much because we wanted it, but because we felt almost forced by reasons created by his family, they did not approve of our relationship for religious reasons (we are of different religions with him), not that this for us ever mattered, in fact, it did not, but for adults, it is definitely a big problem. He had an argument with his family over it, I started to feel guilty, I didn't want him to still be in a bad relationship with them, they were his family after all. We split up. I just left, no matter how hard it was for me. For several months, we had completely cut off contact with each other. I myself did not forget it during these months, I difficult and hard experienced it, and I never succeeded at all. Until one day he called me, we talked for hours, we wanted to both just see each other. That's what we did. We saw each other, but secretly, hiding, no one would know, we kept texting, talking... So... With secretive meetings, he visits me, I see him, we see him about 2 months, for 2 3 weeks. This hiding has been going on for nearly three years, and we both realize that as much as it is sweet to be together, we are so tortured, by keeping it all a secret, and when one of us has to leave, only we know what's wrong with us. And we can't stop, it's supposed to be the last time, but it's not, and we can't stop, that's the only way we're torturing ourselves, and we're getting nowhere. We know that if we keep going like this, there's no future, but we can't give up on each other.