Isn't The Problem In Me?

The Story

It can't be called a problem, but ... I'm 20, I live in one of the big cities, I study law so far. But I have been alone for all eternity! I had 2 relationships that were when I was little and of course frivolous. When I was in 9th grade, I liked a boy from another city (I think that's when it all started), but things didn't work out and we never saw each other again. I felt very sorry for him, I only thought about him for 1-2 years, but your childish work, the time came and my feelings for him disappeared. I didn't deal with anyone while I was in high school, because I'm from a small town and we all know each other. I pushed a lot of people away because I didn't care about boys during that period. This continued until the end of the 12th grade. However, I met one that we dealt with until March this year. He wasn't bad, but he had bad habits - he liked drugs a little. We weren't together, but people thought we were. We went out together, we had photos on Facebook. I had terrible feelings for him, I shed many tears, but in the end things did not end well with him, we can say that we do not even greet each other anymore. He was looking for reasons to quarrel and accused me of something very cruel. which I would never do. Anyway ... I thought I would never forget it. Well, the other day I saw him kissing one ... It didn't impress me, but I was dumb that he kept going and I was standing still. And this has been so for all eternity. Anyway, lately I've had sympathy for a boy, we write to each other. Well, he took that one too. Why doesn't it always work with me? I can not understand. I'm not a model, but I'm still not a backward dwarf with thick glasses. I'm not complaining about my appearance, I never did it because I think everything in me is normal. I'm not a repulsive annoyance either. Although I lived in a small town, my manners are good, I know where to behave. Whenever I have the opportunity, I try to help someone with something. I can't answer the question in that case why I'm alone. Why can't I impress anyone? After the last one I came to the conclusion that the problem is in me, but where exactly do I make a mistake?

Last Updated
August 12, 2020
Author:
sayantanighosh0609

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