Hello ... My story is as follows ... A few months ago I was fine, I was very happy with life, everything was going well and I felt good. I had, and now I have friends. However, things suddenly went awry. I made a drastic change in myself, I blushed and it changed me radically. I'm not the same as before ... I'm getting into depressive episodes. I shut myself up at home and go out less and less. And only with my most loyal friends at a bar or disco. I said to myself ... I will wait for time to pass, to blunt the depression ... for my hair to grow more and then to return to life. However, a few days ago the most horrible thing happened to me. One of my friends, to whom I had (and still have feelings), ignored me :( we haven't seen each other in general since I got sick. We've only seen each other twice since spring. I wrote to him twice on Skype, but he doesn't answer. It's not that we've seen each other very often before, but it was different, there was a thrill. Now he's looking to get out, and he's clearly indifferent. At the last meeting, he didn't even say he already had a girlfriend. I learned it by accident (from friends) and mostly from his status on Facebook. I was very upset. :( Not only am I depressed, but to top it all off. My friends advise me to forget that he is not serious and not worth wasting time with. But we have never crossed the friendly barrier before. But I wanted things to happen between us. Because of the depression or it just happened, I don't know. And he found another one ... now I'm very sorry. I don't know if it's my fault or it was just written to happen I mean, fate knows its job ... or I'm wrong, I don't know if I should stop hoping for it, for some chance, a door ... or forget it. I've been really crazy for the last few months, and I must have pushed him away. I also told him about my problems and illnesses ... blah blah and things like that. But he also has them. What advice will you give me. We used to spend a lot of time with him, we toured the mountains, tents ... together with my friends. We were very cheerful company. There were one or two intimate moments, but nothing more. After these moments, he seemed to withdraw, then left for Sweden for a month. And after I got the disease, I'm not at all sure if I rejected it or in the beginning there was nothing between us. My friends tell me that he just came into my life to forget the previous one (I was still in love with him then). After I got the disease, I was completely confused about my life. I called several times and talked to my ex to give me support that I would be fine. My family is with me and taking care of me during this difficult time, even though I have already been declared insane. Haha. What would you advise me According to my friends, he perceived me simply as a friend and nothing more. He even told them. It is very difficult to just part with an (internet) love illusion. I snap my photos back when we were together as a company, I look at them ... and they just bring back memories that upset me, because even then I had very long hair and I was at the peak of my self-esteem, I didn't have an illness and I felt very good. . I felt bad after reading his status, nothing else. He didn't share anything with me. Another love illusion ... from which I have to shake off. :( and to fight my illness first, instead of looking for men's attention. I haven't eaten much lately, I've lost weight, I just smoke cigarettes. My father says that if I continue like this, I will certainly look like my mother (she had a mental illness). I will be happy for any support from people, to fight my illness and to continue my life normally. Without disease and suffering. 2nd to forget this person too, despite the wonderful memories together. :( and tents .. and holidays in Greece. Then I worked and made money, traveled around Europe. After the illness I locked myself mostly at home, hung out on Facebook and went out with only 2 loyal friends. I don't have one anyway a lot. Work, university .. I can't think at all at the moment. And they didn't accept me this year anyway. My brother tells me to at least enroll in a course. To be among people. I used to want to study French, like 2nd language. But I found it difficult and I don't care. I already know German. I was better in the summer and I was even looking for a job, but when I went out with this man a month ago and then I found out about his status on Facebook and I was in a bad mood again. I will be happy for opinions and comments. It's clear that I have to write it off, too, but it takes me a while to get used to the thought. And to rearrange my life anew, to keep in it only the people who deserve it. And to part with old memories and delusions ... for good times, but in the past and so on ... It's very difficult for me just. :) I've never been in such a state before, from a blush, but I've experienced everything in life. Physical trauma ... but not psychological. Not to mention how much I suffer for this man. I still remember the moments when we went to them and ate his lutenitsa supplies. I also know where he lives and what he does ... and how well we had a good time together ... before I got sick and he played me, haha. :
1 teasemycock_ answered
I did not understand what disease it was. For depression? If your mother had a mental illness, I don't know why she gave birth to children, because it's hereditary. Contact your GP, you may need treatment. It's not normal to have such a hard time with a man you haven't had a relationship with and almost nothing to do with. Even without finding a girlfriend, he obviously wouldn't be with you now, since he didn't do anything until now, but he had the opportunity. My advice is to pay attention to your health, and this man has never been yours anyway.