Is This Love In Your Opinion?

I saw that there was a similar comment posted on me, so I decided to post one. I met about 3 years ago. She is married and I am married. We shared everything, or so I think. Until 2-3 months ago, I had no feelings for her, but from fairy tale to fairy tale "how do you know I don't love you ..." I fell in love with her. My feelings for her grew with each passing minute. She was everything to me, I would give my life for her ... I started writing love emails to her (considering that I never wrote poems ...) I went to bed and woke up thinking about her. It never crossed my mind that I could fall in love with her. Ever since I started writing her poems, she has been answering like: you are very kind, thank you ... Considering that I write for her for 1 hour. I had the feeling from then on that he got colder towards me in a nutshell I thought, that she overplayed with me. I was very sick, I was jealous and I will not describe how I entered Skype (which I recognize that my action is not an example ... but jealousy as it is called. I saw what he wrote to him like on: I love you very much, I can't live without you, I love you, you are my life ... During this time I couldn't sleep, I wanted to “explode.” I still hadn't told her that I found out about I asked her if she loved me and she claimed that she loved me. After 3-4 days I couldn't stand it and showed that I understood about the other one. She told me that she didn't love him, that she overplayed with him, that one she felt for him and another for me ... Gradually things became as they were in reality, we started blaming each other ... Why did I interfere in her personal life, that my act was nasty, vile ... I have the feeling ,, that it instills in me a constant sense of guilt (not that my action is right), but I am almost to blame for everything. I just loved her madly, we didn't even have sex, there were only a few kisses. Our relationship is over, I'm sick, I'm sick, but I'm clenching my teeth. I have the feeling that I have been deceived, deceived, attached and abandoned :(. I want to know at least who is guilty and who is right, because I think that one is not guilty. So tell your opinion and you.