Is There Any Future For Us

Hello. I would like to share my fears of possibly sharing an opinion because I am extremely confused. I'm 21 years old. For almost 2 months I have been in a relationship with a girl who is 18 and still goes to school. I even think that a relationship is strongly said because I have the feeling that it does not perceive our relationship as a relationship. During my teenage years, I don't know how to explain it in the most vivid way, but I was a covered, typical bison and I was often the object of ridicule for everything, which more or less affected my self-esteem, and from there I totally shut up, like I avoided contact with girls. After I finished and changed the environment, fortunately I managed to get out of this state and I think I'm getting on track. So 2 months ago I met her and fell in love for a second. Needless to say, it was my first, and I had no idea what to do with it. In fact, she met me, then again she supported the initiative for a while. I managed to shake off relatively quickly and took matters into my own hands, but I feel like I'm already in the background for her. After she writes to her sometimes at noon, I don't get an answer until the evening, I see her in Messenger, but she doesn't read my messages. It is very rare to meet in the evening and be able to have a normal chat. It always happens before going to bed and the pleasure for me does not last more than 10-15 minutes before going to bed. Before that we exchange a message, but I almost always wait 1 hour to respond. I mean, it's like I'm in the background, by the way. She doesn't even hide it, she says "I'm with a friend" or "I'm watching a movie". This makes me feel extremely ridiculous. I'm so in love with her, that as soon as I receive a message I am in seventh heaven and I leave everything, and while I am waiting for an answer, I stand like an idiot waiting for him to answer me, and so every night for almost 2 months. Ah, she prefers to watch the movie, and only then, if she doesn't feel like sleeping, she takes 10-15 minutes for me, during which time in half an hour she writes something - she doesn't. Not to mention that as we write to each other, without saying a word, he suddenly disappears and I stand and wait ... And even when he decides to give me 15 minutes, he says almost nothing. He answers YES or NO and that's it. Otherwise, he constantly sends me a heart and tells me that he loves me. I do not know what to think anymore. I'm so in love that it breaks my heart to do that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? I stand like an idiot all over waiting to answer me and so every night for almost 2 months. Ah, she prefers to watch the movie, and only then, if she doesn't feel like sleeping, she takes 10-15 minutes for me, during which time in half an hour she writes something - she doesn't. Not to mention that as we write to each other, without saying a word, he suddenly disappears and I stand and wait ... And even when he decides to give me 15 minutes, he says almost nothing. He answers YES or NO and that's it. Otherwise, he constantly sends me a heart and tells me that he loves me. I do not know what to think anymore. I'm so in love that it breaks my heart to do that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? I stand like an idiot all over waiting to answer me and so every night for almost 2 months. Ah, she prefers to watch the movie, and only then, if she doesn't feel like sleeping, she takes 10-15 minutes for me, during which time in half an hour she writes something - she doesn't. Not to mention that as we write to each other, without saying a word, he suddenly disappears and I stand and wait ... And even when he decides to give me 15 minutes, he says almost nothing. He answers YES or NO and that's it. Otherwise, he constantly sends me a heart and tells me that he loves me. I do not know what to think anymore. I'm so in love that it breaks my heart to do that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? during this time in half an hour he wrote something - not her. Not to mention that as we write to each other, without saying a word, he suddenly disappears and I stand and wait ... And even when he decides to give me 15 minutes, he says almost nothing. He answers YES or NO and that's it. Otherwise, he constantly sends me a heart and tells me that he loves me. I do not know what to think anymore. I'm so in love that it breaks my heart to do that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? during this time in half an hour he wrote something - not her. Not to mention that as we write to each other, without saying a word, he suddenly disappears and I stand and wait ... And even when he decides to give me 15 minutes, he says almost nothing. He answers YES or NO and that's it. Otherwise, he constantly sends me a heart and tells me that he loves me. I do not know what to think anymore. I'm so in love that it breaks my heart to do that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? that my heart breaks when he does that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal? that my heart breaks when he does that to me. Please tell, am I by the way or are any girls like that? Is this normal?