Hello everyone! I am an 18 year old boy. I have a problem with a person very close to me. It's about a friend from my class. She and I have been extremely close since I entered high school. We were like brother and sister. Everything was going great until the end of 2017, when unfortunately I fell in love with her. She is, without exaggeration, a great person, kind, caring, cool, but also very good and vulnerable and a lot of people use her for that. I got angry every time she cried after someone harassed or insulted her. When I found out that I was in love with her, I was very scared and disappointed in myself. I felt like the greatest traitor in the world. I wanted to get out of her space because I felt terribly bad around her, I was being eaten inside by thoughts of her without her even suspecting it. Finally on holidays, no matter how hard I tried to distance myself, I looked for her and we wrote to each other, she was relieved that we chatted a bit. But then something happened to me and I became paranoid that I was nobody to her and we did not congratulate each other on the holidays, which saddened me even more. We went back to school and I decided to delete her from my life because I didn't want to go through any dramas and I thought that she didn't care about me.
She wondered why I was doing it, but I never gave her an answer because I would disappoint her a lot. I kept running away from her and my problem! However, everything became super unbearable and I tore inside because I care a lot about her, and I punished her with this silence (maybe I didn't just like her anymore, I loved her). I hurt what I love! Now I recently wanted to talk to her, why I ignored her and found out, that I had actually hurt her a lot and it was extremely painful for her to be erased from me and my life for no reason! And she was absolutely right to be mad at me. I felt terrible and wanted to cross myself from the face of this world, but I couldn't tell her that I had done it because I was afraid I would lose her and that I thought I had betrayed her with my thoughts of how much I loved her. !! Now that I look at our friendship, it is irreparably damaged not to mention anything more. However, I want to be completely honest with her and tell her that I love her unconditionally very much, even though it might ruin our relationship forever. What should I do? because I was afraid that I would lose her and that I thought I had betrayed her with my thoughts of how much I love her! Now that I look at our friendship, it is irreparably damaged not to mention anything more. However, I want to be completely honest with her and tell her that I love her unconditionally very much, even though it might ruin our relationship forever. What should I do? because I was afraid that I would lose her and that I thought I had betrayed her with my thoughts of how much I love her! Now that I look at our friendship, it is irreparably damaged not to mention anything more. However, I want to be completely honest with her and tell her that I love her unconditionally very much, even though it might ruin our relationship forever. What should I do?
1 msnutwet answered
There is a way to give you what you want. I've never seen people pursue their desires like that. If you think everything in the world is worth it, I'm determined on everything. You're right, boy. How much can I repeat to you. Why don't you believe me that I tried unconsciously. There is a way. The only one, but there is. You have nothing to fix. She will take care, you count and by denying