Is Sensitivity A Disease?

The Story

Hello! :) Since this is a site for sharing and tips, I decided to describe my problem. There is something in me that worries me. It has existed for as long as I can remember, but it is only now that I have begun to wonder if it is not some kind of mental burden. I've always had a special feeling for the things in life, maybe the so-called hypersensitivity. I mean, I feel the people and things in life in a special way. Also the world as a whole. When someone suffers, I feel his pain as if I am suffering myself. For example, I can't miss the bug that has fallen on its back and is desperately trying to stand up, and so on. It is unpleasant for me to communicate with aggressive and malicious people, because I feel too strongly the negative energy that flows from them. But my main problem is that I feel that I understand others more than I should. That I see things in people, which others cannot or do not want to see. And the bad thing is that I've been like this since I was little and I don't know if I will be able to change. I remember the first time I felt someone else's pain. One of the children in the kindergarten fell and was seriously injured. He cried and I cried with him. I do not know why. I just felt his grief. Then there was a period when I didn't care much for others. I didn't feel sorry for anyone or anything. I was only interested in myself. Today my problem is that I look at things differently again. I feel someone else's pain as if it were mine. I experience the problems of my relatives and friends, even strangers, as if they were mine. I feel people's moods too much. Soon I even got angry with the negative radiation of a stranger. I had the feeling that clouds of hatred and aggression were floating in the air around her. You must already describe me as a freak :) and you wonder what kind of nonsense I am writing. Maybe you're right :) So, I'll tell you that I've been trying to be like most people for a while. To lock my heart to pity, humanity and other similar humanity there. I try to learn to hate others, to look at them as rivals. Not to follow any rules and to live at the expense of others. I want to be like everyone else. Not to care about anything and not to feel the things of life in this special way that I described above. However, the stray dog, which is frantically tearing the sausage shell taken out of the bucket, is still not just another cougar for me. And the suffering, lonely being, deprived of love, home and caress. The grim and stunted faces of people in public transport and on the streets, their quiet sighs, unheard and unseen by anyone, continue to torment my heart. Their empty and disillusioned looks still make my blood cool. I can't describe in words what I feel. And a little more :) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. they continue to torment my heart. Their empty and disillusioned looks still make my blood cool. I can't describe in words what I feel. And a little more :) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. they continue to torment my heart. Their empty and disillusioned looks still make my blood cool. I can't describe in words what I feel. And a little more :) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. Their empty and disillusioned looks still make my blood cool. I can't describe in words what I feel. And a little more :) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. Their empty and disillusioned looks still make my blood cool. I can't describe in words what I feel. And a little more :) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. ) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. ) The other thing that excites me is whether it is possible that there is no love. Has it completely disappeared from people's hearts? Why we have all become endless egotists. In essence without hearts. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. In machines driven only by passion and the desire to satisfy it at any cost. In people ready to throw the person next to them like a handkerchief. To steal his love and then spit on it, like something disgusting dug out of the garbage of life. So what I want to know is, do I have a psychological problem or am I just hypersensitive. Has anyone encountered a disease like mine. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me. Thank you for your attention! :) I will be happy to answer me.

Last Updated
October 07, 2020
Author:
eleanornorton

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