Is It Worth Living?

The Story

I'm a girl of 17. Every day I wonder what the meaning of life is, why do I have to do such meaningless things like going to school when we do nothing, we waste our time in almost all subjects because so much material has been put in, that teachers don't care to forgive us and make us learn everything, and I'm tired of trying to learn everything to maintain a good diploma, which I don't need, but because I've always been here she only had good grades, I am conscientious now to stop studying and not to practice. On the other hand, I have decided to apply for dentistry, for which I need time, because it is very difficult for me to memorize the topics, and I am even more angry because I understand them perfectly, but I just can't learn them as with the words in the textbook. On the other hand, I don't know if I want to do this, I don't know what's interesting to me. How can I know what I would enjoy doing without practicing it. I chose this profession because I am interested in these subjects, and I like them. And in practice I don't have much choice, because the only stable professions are programming, medicine and law. But to put it aside even if I become a dentist and have a stable income, in the end I still have to live for what - for a family, some momentary experiences, but what is behind it, do we have a mission, what and why.

I'm tired of listening to the same appointed things from people every day, like gossip, who did what, etc., discussing some movies, which coffee we're going to go to. I can't stand to see everyone drifting and doing things they don't know why. I don't even want to go out and see people anymore, but for some reason they are constantly trying to communicate with me and call me out, but at the same time I get annoyed, but I hate to tell them to leave me alone. , because they look at me with a sad look and start asking me if I'm angry with them, if I hate them, etc., and I'm still so nervous. If there is no purpose on this earth, why don't I kill myself right now, what am I losing. I don't feel satisfied when I achieve my goals, I accept it as a kind of obligation, which if I finish - nothing, but if I don't, I feel guilty and depressed that I'm not good for anything and I will fail. I'm tired of living in ignorance. They just tell you live for the moment and rejoice, but that's not enough for me. I don't want to go with the flow. Please give me advice if you find yourself in such a situation.

Last Updated
August 26, 2020
Author:
tgirl_abella

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