Is It Worth It?

Hello. My story is long, but I will try to tell it briefly. Almost a year ago I met a boy 98 set (I'm 01) next to mutual friends. It so happened that we got together. Somehow things were not going well, there was still no time for me, etc., but some small things showed real feelings. We were together for 1 month, after which I found out that he had secretly seen his 45-year-old ex and I left him. Half a year later, he came back into my life with the words "I still have feelings for you." We talked a lot and I dumped a good boy, with whom I went for 4 months to return to the boy X. So, we got together, his boy and girl friends, who were mine until now, hated us because of the injured dumped boy. However, we lived together and it was all flowers and roses called him, except for one long-awaited pregnancy test result. Even before we saw one line, he was prepared for 2 and talked about how he wanted a family with me and even if I got pregnant at that age he would not leave me. Well, it was June and I had to go to relatives for the summer, and he had to stay in the capital because he was working. At first we understood each other, but then the distance took us away. We broke up. I broke up with him this time too. 2 weeks ago I returned to Sofia and he screamed to see me. I don't know how I caught fire again. We got together, but we don't stop arguing about nonsense. I don't feel like I can trust him. Also, the boy and girl mentioned above are currently friends with him and we hide that we have reunited. And they don't like me at all and often insult me ​​in front of him. Is it worth staying with him? to fight for our relationship and often ignore my stubbornness and pride, as well as my doubts? I feel that his feelings are not as strong as before, but at times I feel the spark that kept the fire burning the second time we were together. He is my first love and I don't want to give up so easily, but it's as if we've become too estranged. My lack of trust is killing me.