Is It Really Too Late?

The Story

Hello! It doesn't matter how old I am or where I come from - I'm a teenager, and he is 5 years older than me and I would define him as a man already. It all started almost 3 years ago with a chance acquaintance, followed by increased interest from him, constant offers for coffee and going out, constantly writing to me on social networks - every free second, even when I stubbornly did not answer him ... and so For 2 and a half years he did not give up ... during that time I very rarely answered the things he wrote to me ... I never agreed to go out and see him for coffee, or when I promised to call him to let's make a deal, I never did - on the one hand, all this time I felt something like an inexplicable fear of meeting someone older than me - yes, 5 years really is nothing special, but when we met I was really young and he seemed like a big dad who I don't know what he wants from me - I was afraid to see him, I didn't know what would happen next, I was very insecure, and and exactly during these 2 and a half years. On the other hand, I didn't like it - or maybe I was too obsessed with thousands of other personal issues that I didn't even give myself a chance or time to think about whether it really is so ... and now that time has passed / these 2 years and a half / gradually things in my personal life started to fall into place, and I had already grown up, I was not afraid as before, I had changed the way I saw things and ... no matter how awfully late, I started to I pay attention to him, for the first time I thought about him in another, special way, I realized what I was missing for so long, I even reread my old chronologies with him and I couldn't believe the nice things he had written to me - I even had the feeling that I was reading them for the first time - to such an extent that I didn't pay attention to him ...! And it seems that it really turned out to be too late - when I asked him a little around if he still liked me, he talked about some very special long-term friend of his, to whom he has obviously been feeling for half a year, but he can't be with her because she works in another country ... he told me first that he liked us both, but he was quite confused, then that he didn't like me for a while, and when I asked him to tell me a little more about him and the other , said that he was not told about it - and further when I asked him, he again diverted the topic - apparently he really loves her already and it hurts to talk about it,

Last Updated
October 31, 2020
Author:
ingennui