Is It Really Confusing Or Am I In A Movie ...

Hello!! I'm a girl with a "problem". It's a problem ... All I listen to is just "Boys, boys, boyfriends, kisses and hugs." By default ... all my friends are in a relationship ... I'm the lone wolf who's on a date with a problem. Am I desperate and depressed? No. But I'm just confused. But on the other hand ... it may not be as confusing as I think. That is why I am addressing you. I have no one to turn to. And I just decided that you could give me some advice. Like I said, all my girlfriends are in a relationship. By the way of logic ... I also need someone to hug me and be by my side. And of course ... There's a boy I really like. Really a lot. And I know you're going to say to yourself, "Tell him ... don't procrastinate." Believe me, I tried, but the right words did not come out of my mouth, as ridiculous as it sounds ... The point is that we are friends. But as I always do ... I cross the border of friendship and go to the bad side, namely "the thought of something more than a friend". Maybe that's what stops me from saying what I'm feeling ... because I'm afraid of failing the little thing we have. We are in different classes. And I'm with my friends every break or so I make them think because I'm there for him. It all starts with a simple "Hey what's going on?" And then the view is too good to be true. We hug, tickle, chase, annoy, bite ...

And in general I feel unique because of his actions ... He is jealous of the boys who talk to me. And as soon as he greets an acquaintance, his words are " Who is this? Are you nailing them again? "Then he hugs me. But as I'm supposed to be, I'm jealous of his girlfriends and only if someone tells me that he talked to someone or that he" engaged "with someone, I turn to him and ask him, and he laughs. So .. so far so good ... But as we all know there is always a "BUT" that fails everything. Yesterday we almost kissed, but we were interrupted. And today he pretends that nothing is And I even found out that he used to go out with his best friend, which is okay, because I'm going out with my best friend, too, but it's just that something seems to change because I know that she likes him. We're close to her and it's just obvious. Like me ... I think ... I'm afraid he's feeling something for her too. I'm afraid we won't even stay friends, which I do not want. I'm very sick and dumb and I get upset just thinking that something could happen between them. I know that I describe him as if he is a countman, but he is not. He is correct. If he is with a girl, he will be with her to the last ... I don't know if you will understand me, because it is written quite confusingly. And it is obvious that both here and in my head there is a mess. I hope you understand me and help me. Thank you in advance!