Is It Ok To Smoke Weed Regularly?

The Story

Hello! First of all, I would like to thank the creators of this platform and all the people who help others here. I am writing here because I am looking for your help and I am really confused. I have an environment around me and good parents, but I have always been lonely. It's just that people don't understand me and I've tried to change that, but I'm too sensitive and I just shut myself in after every failure to reach my loved ones. Basically, I'm a 22-year-old girl and I've had a serious relationship for 4 years. My parents have been living abroad for 11 years, but in the beginning I didn't want to stay with them, and now I want to, but my friend doesn't want to, and we live together and it's hard for me to separate. I tried weed for the first time when I was 12 years old. Then when I was 16 I started using it from time to time. After the age of 18-19, I started smoking weed regularly. I once had a problem with the police, but things calmed down with slight complications, mostly the seriousness of the circumstances. That didn't stop me. I continued to smoke, but I was more careful in hiding.

Today my parents found about 3-4 grams of grass, pipe and lighters in my bag. They were very sad. I was expecting this moment one day, but I didn't think it would be so soon. However, I thought they were going to kill me, but in fact they were just worried and asked me what was going on, if they were wrong about me, if I was sad and I had problems. I said that the grass was not mine, but my friends' and that I was doing them a favor. Did they believe - I don't know ... I hope. But my mother was crying and telling me she didn't want to hurt herself. You see, I don't think grass hurts me. All those people who complain about marijuana - I don't understand them. For me, grass is salvation. The grass helps me to sleep peacefully, to fall asleep easily (I used to have many awake nights). The grass helps me to eat normally and more (the weight is about 45) and for me it is important to gain at least 50 kg. You see, the grass takes me through the problems and helps me relax. I don't want to give it up. I even wanted to explain to my parents, but I guess they would never understand ... Maybe you will condemn me for being a drug addict, etc., but the grass makes me happy and calm. What people have always taken from me. The grass doesn't hurt me, it makes me feel better physically and mentally. It doesn't make me lie down, I'm too lazy to lose the desire to live, on the contrary, it gives me the incentive to want more from life, to find joy ... even in a binge.

I had a lot of difficulties and obstacles, even if it seems strange to you at this age, but from the age of 12 most of the time I was alone and I managed alone and thought of friends as family, and they just betrayed me and hurt me. I love my parents, they do everything for me, but sometimes they use a lot of ugly words that I can't forget even after years. I also love my friend who started beating me in the last year and a half of our relationship, and then he was sorry and I forgave ... I don't know how to explain the loneliness I feel deep inside and I wouldn't even want to believe that other people could make me happy. I would like to rely on myself to be responsible for my happiness, because I know for myself that I will not give up - do you understand me? Even my parents turned against me when I needed a kind word the most. I'm tired of scandals and shouts. I don't want anyone to insult or hit me. Like me, I don't want to hurt anyone. The grass makes me happy and I want to continue using it, because for me it is one of the good things in life. One of the pleasures ... Do you think I'm a drug addict? Do I have mental problems? What's wrong with me? Is it a mistake that I love grass and don't find it bad and dangerous? I will greatly appreciate your attention and words, because if there was someone to talk to, I would not burden you, but alas ...

I do not. am i a drug addict Do I have mental problems? What's wrong with me? Is it a mistake that I love grass and don't find it bad and dangerous? I will greatly appreciate your attention and words, because if there was someone to talk to, I would not burden you, but alas ... I do not. am i a drug addict Do I have mental problems? What's wrong with me? Is it a mistake that I love grass and don't find it bad and dangerous? I will greatly appreciate your attention and words, because if there was someone to talk to, I would not burden you, but alas ... I do not.

Last Updated
September 14, 2020
Author:
virtual.ibfmeets

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