"It' il pass with time," is not passing. I'm not the only girl without friends in class. People know me as a "weird quiet girl" and I often hear from classmates "Can you even talk?" and I feel sick. Others have told me that in order to get used to socialization, I have to socialize with people and without my desire because I will not have one. Just as someone wants to talk, I run to the bathroom because I'm about to get a panic attack. As someone talks to me, I start sweating and shaking. When the teachers test me, I can't run to the bathroom and cry. When I talk, I stutter and my classmates laugh. When the lady says my name and some classmates shout "Come talk ma don't waste our time" or "Are speaks ma, but wait, we forgot she doesn't have a voice," and I panic. I've been too sensitive since I was too young. When I was little, I was very sociable and communicating with people, but they seemed strange and started harassing me. I'm just different from everyone else. I don't listen to this, and that's absolutely my whole class, except for me, they talk about boys, and I'm not interested in that kind of thing at all, even I prefer to die alone, they talk to the boys, and in my case, I'm going to end up stressing out if I talk to a guy. The girls in my class are evil, but boys are much worse. I used to hate myself because everyone hates me and I'm a loner, but since 6th grade, I've been in the lonely world and I hate people besides my family. I recently fell for a boy, and I don't know how, but he noticed and cut me off in front of the whole class, and I didn't even have the guts to lie that it wasn't true. I guess in the hours we sat together, I watched him a lot without realizing it. He said to me, If you weren't so shy, you'd be up for at least once, but just because you have a character, you're going to die a virgin. Guys tell me what to do???
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