Is It Normal?!

The Story

Hi, I'll start with being a girl in my 20s. Because of some circumstances, I haven't had sex yet, and they're the following: I'm more anxious, I can't engage with men I don't like visually (to know it's superficial, but to understand it I would explain it like this: "when you don't like what a food looks like and you haven't tasted it, would you ever eat it? "... Anyway, I've always received male attention, but it's normal, every girl gets! I don't think I'm a top beauty, but I don't think I'm ugly. So, let's move on to the essential part! When my acquaintances started to lead a sex life, I found the way they started out as super wrong and didn't want to be like them, they just went to bed with guys they didn't know and didn't like just so they could boast that they were no longer virgins, or so began to propose to men that I wondered, do these people have elementary dignity? While I thought that being a virgin wasn't a problem, someone would at least like me and physically appeal to me to have a desire to go to bed with that person, that's already starting to become a problem. I don't know if it's all in my head, as I know girls who are still virgins and don't care and don't have my worries. And my worries are that eventually when I make a friend, and he's unlikely to be my age because I always like me older than me by at least five years, this guy will expect me to let him go on the 2nd, 3rd week, and maybe when he finds out I'm 20 and I'm not having sex, it's going to be weird because we live in a society like this. That girls start a sex life before they even have their cycle! I don't know if it's normal to still be a virgin, probably not, but no one can say "when is it normal and when you're not"! The problem is, I keep hearing girlfriends explain themselves to their partners, and I'm standing and listening and not even having a boyfriend. I'm starting to feel like some super-clogged 20-year-old virgin! And to know the problem is not in men, but in me, maybe I have too high criteria, but I can not pay attention to everyone who writes to me, so there are those (many) who can not write properly, or when the conversation with "what are you doing sweet", I just feel sick! And the men I like are some total slobs with tremendous self-esteem! And damn it, people, it's not for my fucking sex, if it's my dawn, believe me, I can get it at any time there are enough men who are willing to lick my soles to go to bed with them, but I don't just want sex as much as I say I'm not a virgin!

Last Updated
June 23, 2020
Author:
amwoode

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