Is It Better That Way?

The Story

I thought a lot and decided that it would be best to post a topic because I just don't know what to do. Here is my problem. We have known a boy for about 3 years. We have always been close, more or less. He's 22 and I'm 16. Well, I only told him how I feel this year, so far so good. We became boyfriends, everything was okay, but there came a time when he seemed to dominate our relationship, rather I let myself be crushed because I thought I had no choice. Our relationship meant a lot, a lot, a lot more to me than it obviously did to him. I tried to please him for everything, at least in my own way. I love him more than .. I don't know .. more than anything, more than myself, I'm ready for anything for him. He is the first person I allow so close to me, but he seems to be the last. It's been 3 months, almost 4, since we got together he and the last few days, maybe a week, he's been acting weird. He didn't write to me as often as he used to when we talked on the phone ... did it sound, hmmm, tense !! I don't know, it's hard for me to define. So he started telling me how confused he was, how he didn't know how he felt and ... most interestingly, he didn't know how he felt about me. How does he love me ... as a good friend or boyfriend, m yes. Well, we broke up, he rather broke me, haha. We stayed in .. friendly relations, although for me it is quite painful, I try to ignore my feelings. It will soon be a month since we broke up, and I still love him, sometimes I wonder if I will ever forget him. My friends say he doesn't deserve what I did for him, what I gave him, but I always deny it. To me he is the man whom I have loved the most in my life, at least for the moment. I experienced many things with him, from every aspect. I'm not sorry for anything, I'm not angry about anything. I know, probably, well, I'm sure it happened, because obviously there's a third person, noo .. I love him and .. I don't want to, somehow, I don't want to, we're just friends. I'm not one of those girls who goes out with a boy and ... breaks up, gets together, breaks up, gets together. Basically, my relationships have been longer, ~ a year, and this is my shortest relationship .. I am the end of my relationship and once a point is made, for me it is the end. However, it seems different with him, on the one hand I want to be together again, but on the other hand I don't know if I want to suffer again. Of course, things can change, I can be more assertive and stand my ground. He is the man who turned me from a child into .. a woman is very strongly said, but from that naive girl I became a better person .. after he dumped me .. Everyone tells me it's for my own good, but I don't understand it that way. He was and still is everything to me. I love him, maybe I know I will overcome him, but ... I say again, I love him. I do not know why a person would run away from someone whom he loves with all his heart and gives everything for him. I have no idea. I may idealize him too much, but I know I love him and want to be with him. I hope I'm not mistaken. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read my story, I would be very grateful if you could comment on this. Please without unnecessary hatred, if possible. I may know that I will overcome it, but ... I say again, I love it. I do not know why a person would run away from someone whom he loves with all his heart and gives everything for him. I have no idea. I may idealize him too much, but I know I love him and want to be with him. I hope I'm not mistaken. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read my story, I would be very grateful if you could comment on this. Please without unnecessary hatred, if possible. I may know that I will overcome it, but ... I say again, I love it. I do not know why a person would run away from someone whom he loves with all his heart and gives everything for him. I have no idea. I may idealize him too much, but I know I love him and want to be with him. I hope I'm not mistaken. Thanks to everyone who took the time to read my story, I would be very grateful if you could comment on this. Please without unnecessary hatred, if possible. if you give your opinion on the matter. Please without unnecessary hatred, if possible. if you give your opinion on the matter. Please without unnecessary hatred, if possible.

Last Updated
October 25, 2020
Author:
fiery_couple420

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