In fact, you really want to be weird. But you are not. You are normal. At the age of 26, as far as I can remember, I ran the Society and Culture department at the largest news agency at the time, I had a university degree, I spoke two foreign languages, I read all the world classics, I knew the history of philosophy and fine arts perfectly. and I lived with my friend. Neither did I feel strange, nor did anyone perceive me that way. Most of my friends were moving at the same pace. We went to discos almost jokingly only on the sea, because there was nothing else to do late at night. The chalga made us laugh, we only listened to rock. Recently, my mother gathered at our cottage students she once had a class with. A colorful group of young people came, some with their wives or husbands, lit a barbecue, they cut their salads. It struck me that none of them smoked - I noticed because I offered ashtrays. Also, apart from the beer the boys poured on the grill, I didn't see any other alcohol being drunk. They listened to normal music, I didn't notice what, because they played it quietly so as not to bother the neighbors. After the party, they washed everything, cleaned it, got in the cars and left. I just changed my attitude towards this generation! I don't know in what environment you move, that you feel like a white crow there, but believe me, there are a lot of decent young people outside of it. And at 26, no one goes to discos - it's not just interesting. My husband, who is 37, for example, has not even been to a disco in his life. Learning-work, learning-work - when? !! And he says that somehow he was not attracted, he has loved classical music since he was a child, and there Mozart will be hard to hear. Your problem is not that you are "weird", but that at the age of 26 you are trying to attract attention with qualities that no one will be surprised by. I read your post twice, I was looking for something like "I go to sleep" or "I have a prophetic gift", but some such feature, but to make yourself original by reading books, I'm sorry ...
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Just meet other artistic people. And avoid as much as possible any communication with chalga type people, and in general with people who you feel will be showered with criticism, or at least will certainly not accept you as you are - do not let anyone crush you mentally. Drinking and smoking have been around for centuries. They are not a sign of adulthood. They are forbidden for children because they are generally harmful to the human body, and in childhood the body is still developing and therefore it is dangerous to start from an early age with these things, but to be in the so-called adult age is still not safe, as you know yourself I guess, and absolutely everyone knows this and it is clear to him. But everyone who has reached the age set for adulthood has the right to drink and smoke as much as he wants. And the fact that you don't want to drink or smoke at all, but it doesn't make you any less developed at all - you're just lucky you don't like these things. Another thing - most people who look grown up aren't really grown up, they're just more confident, or at least they've found a way to look that way. Many people are also lagging behind for certain things / feel lagging behind for certain things just like you, but they just find ways not to notice them. Another thing that many people don't seem to think much about: each generation is different. A 26-year-old man today is very different from a 26-year-old 20, 30 or 50 years ago, not to mention a 26-year-old, a 19th or 18th or 17th century man, etc. As well as the one who will be 26 years old after 20-30, etc. years will be quite different from today. You sound like a completely normal 26-year-old from 2019.