Infidelity And Guilt

The Story

I am 50 years old, married for 20 years with two daughters. I have been in a relationship with a colleague for half a year and our relationship is great, even unexpectedly good. It makes me happy. And before you judge me, I will tell you what led me to cheat. The lack of attention from my husband. He doesn't even notice me. Is it normal in recent years to have sex in the family twice a year? And always on my initiative. I don't think there is any thrill between us. Sex is boring and uninteresting, which makes it meaningless. We are just roommates raising their children together. Is it almost normal not to talk? To justify his work delays forever? Otherwise, my husband is a great father. Take care of the family and children. There is no dispute. But where do I stay? I don't want the rest of my life to be without love, without thrill, without sex, if you will. So how many years do we have left? I have not neglected my appearance. On the contrary. I look 10 years old. younger. I train, I take care of myself. I tried to talk to my husband. He says that's not true. This is his regular answer. He just refuses to talk. Sometimes I think he has a mistress. But, I feel guilty. Guilty of cheating. Although my relationship makes me happy, it fills the lack of love, attention. If I was single / my colleague is divorced /, by now we would have gathered to live together. I don't know where this will lead. I am afraid of the future. And because of the children. I don't want to make them unhappy. But, I feel guilty. Guilty of cheating. Although my relationship makes me happy, it fills the lack of love, attention. If I was single / my colleague is divorced /, by now we would have gathered to live together. I don't know where this will lead. I am afraid of the future. And because of the children. I don't want to make them unhappy. But, I feel guilty. Guilty of cheating. Although my relationship makes me happy, it fills the lack of love, attention. If I was single / my colleague is divorced /, by now we would have gathered to live together. I don't know where this will lead. I am afraid of the future. And because of the children. I don't want to make them unhappy.

Last Updated
August 31, 2020
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ashley_li_

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