Hello. It's a little strange for me to share such things with people I don't know, but the strange thing is that I wouldn't share them with my friends :) So, I'm a 19-year-old man in Varna and I'm in love with a colleague. She is really a girl that a man meets once in a lifetime :) Smart and funny, but also honest and noble. A person who knows how to listen and support, who is interested in your problems and understands them, a person who enjoys talking over beer. We have a lot of things in common, maybe we spend 3-4 hours a day together at the university, we sit next to each other, we study together and I love her company. We even go to sports together. I don't even attract her sexually as much as I like her character. The big problem is that he has a boyfriend. I even know him, a very cool person that I really respect, he's just a guy bigger than her, works and is not seen so often. And what blue eyes there are only! You can dive into them and swim. This girl is really a mistake. I'm just sorry we're in the same group with her now. In addition, we have common friends and interests and I can't help but see her. The worst thing is that she is friendly with me and I love her. I realize that we can't be together, but I can't forget her, and my friendship isn't enough. It's just that sometimes I want to hug her for no reason, to feel her, to hug her next to me and talk all night, or to go somewhere just the two of us. Of course, I didn't mean it seriously, because most likely everyone will hate me even if something happens between us. I don't know people, tell me how feelings are excluded: D. Not that I don't enjoy imagining it, I'm just constantly distracted and careful not to betray myself in any way. Not to mention that the other girls just seem very bad to me. Besides, my success is already super bad, and I need it the first year. It's just that no matter where you look at it, I'm redundant, but if we quarrel or admit to her, I'll lose her as a friend, and that's even worse. Thank you for your patience, I expect constructive comments on how to get my life back;)
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Yeah Al that sounds pretty crap to me, Looks like BT aint for me either. At the moment, it's exactly the same with me, with the difference that we are in a slightly higher course and I tried to do something, but when I look ... I don't think things will work out. And to be in love (for the first time, hellishly strong and also to have some hopes) during a session is just awful. There is no such state simply. I barely get 5-6 hours of sleep a day without commenting on how many times I wake up in the middle of the night, without even thinking about an intimate relationship, but only an emotional one. The situation is even worse during the day. People, experience these things earlier, in your teens, because I tell you honestly, if I wasn't a strong character, I would probably be depressed. You hardly understand what's on my mind, I explain it in such a joking tone, but the truth is that I'm so vulnerable, and by myself, I've never felt it before. It's awful as a feeling and at the same time ... so wonderful.