I'm Tired

The Story

Hello, I will drive straight - I am a man, I am young, but I no longer want to live. Don't ask me a specific reason, I don't know one myself. I only know that I am very ill, I constantly fall into some mental holes, I can cover it on the outside, pretend to be strong, but inside I am long dead. I just don't live, I experience all the negative emotions - stress, fear, indecision, etc. It's not a choice, I don't want it, but I can't control it. It's as if something has entered my brain and controls it, I know, it sounds strange, but I no longer have control over my emotions. I don't see a way out, I tried everything, obviously I have a problem that has no solution. I don't want to take pills. What the hell happened to me? This has been going on for years, before I thought it was because I didn't have a job. Now I have and I have enough money to survive. However, the problem has become even more serious. I don't want to talk to people I don't enjoy anything and I say again - being a rusk is not a personal choice. Even if I exploded, I didn't feel like it, I wasn't looking for advice, I wasn't looking for a way out, I gave up, I just wanted to share how I felt.

Last Updated
September 26, 2020
Author:
kimpetras

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