by the author: Number 6, thanks for the comment. Yes, fortunately I do not have any severe pain, such as in the kidneys. But I don't feel well, I'm physically crushed, like a rag. I think it all comes from the psyche, even sports didn't help. I'm not lucky, believe me I'm not. I have experienced severe physical pain before, I know what it is. Regarding your second comment about the pain: "since I have this pain, I am grateful for every day and every moment I am released." Let me share - since I have my mental problems I am grateful for every minute I feel good. I go to bed at night, I feel good and I know what will happen in the morning. I know that the crisis will happen again, I know that I am spinning in a circle. I know I'm fine for a while today, maybe tomorrow ... At best. I'm trying to hold the moment, I'm trying to find a way to make it a habit. But something in my brain just happens, I can't even explain it, I become a different person. I am a lot of people - from relatively calm, to hellishly nervous, from unnecessarily aggressive and ready for anything, to desperate and closed. And I just want to be calm, sober and balanced, not to go to extremes - be it too hasty or too hesitant. Many people play with me using the strongest weapon - my own emotions against myself. How many things can I say, even now I feel how confused and inconsistent everything I write, or rather, what the one who controls my confused mind writes. I don't even know if these are my words now ... I am a lot of people - from relatively calm, to hellishly nervous, from unnecessarily aggressive and ready for anything, to desperate and closed. And I just want to be calm, sober and balanced, not to go to extremes - be it too hasty or too hesitant. Many people play with me using the strongest weapon - my own emotions against myself. How many things can I say, even now I feel how confused and inconsistent everything I write, or rather, what the one who controls my confused mind writes. I don't even know if these are my words now ... I am a lot of people - from relatively calm, to hellishly nervous, from unnecessarily aggressive and ready for anything, to desperate and closed. And I just want to be calm, sober and balanced, not to go to extremes - be it too hasty or too hesitant. Many people play with me using the strongest weapon - my own emotions against myself. How many things can I say, even now I feel how confused and inconsistent everything I write, or rather what the one who controls my confused consciousness writes. I don't even know if these are my words now ... using the strongest weapon - my own emotions against myself. How many things can I say, even now I feel how confused and inconsistent everything I write, or rather, what the one who controls my confused mind writes. I don't even know if these are my words now ... using the strongest weapon - my own emotions against myself. How many things can I say, even now I feel how confused and inconsistent everything I write, or rather, what the one who controls my confused mind writes. I don't even know if these are my words now ...
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You are most likely developing depression. It is successfully treated. That doesn't mean you're crazy. The biochemistry in the brain is disturbed and it is successfully treated with pills. Go to see a psychiatrist. Take matters into your own hands and you'll be fine.