I'm Starting To Collapse ...

The Story

Hello! First of all, I would like to point out that the story I will share here is completely real and I would like to take it seriously. So, let's get down to business. I'm a 16-year-old girl (I don't think my place of residence is that important) who's really starting to break down mentally. There is not only one problem, but the main factor I guess is the family I live in. And don't think that I live in a sick environment ... No. My parents are people with opportunities who have always wanted the "best" for me, although our opinions often differ. From an early age they bought me expensive things, dressed me in expensive clothes, I was always with the latest models of phones and so on ... In general, unnecessary things for vanity. At least in my opinion. This is the main reason for the negative attitude of others towards me. I don't have any friends, the only contacts with people my age are with my cousin, with whom I rarely see. Absolutely everyone in my class shuns me, thinks I'm bloated, and discusses me by talking nonsense and spitting at me. I tried to get close to a girl a few months ago, but it was all a mockery. It's hard to speak in front of people, everyone thinks it's because I'm bloated, but the truth is that I'm a pretty shy person. On the other hand, my parents are completely dedicated to their work and I hardly receive attention. Now you can call me a bastard, maybe I really look like that on the sidelines, but the truth is that I'm super sensitive, and I've been enduring this since I went to school - I've always had minimal or zero contact with people and I've carried negativity and hatred, because I'm not guilty, that I have. About 2 months ago, I started getting something like seizures (I don't know the correct term for this condition at all), but it is justified by this - at some point in the day, no matter when, I start to feel hellishly sad, as if I get depressed and burst into tears, which last for several hours (almost every day). I decided to write here because I really need advice and I don't have anyone to share it with. I hope I get a serious attitude. Thanks to everyone in advance! because I really need advice, and I don't have anyone to share it with. I hope I get a serious attitude. Thanks to everyone in advance! because I really need advice, and I don't have anyone to share it with. I hope I get a serious attitude. Thanks to everyone in advance!

Last Updated
September 24, 2020
Author:
finnishher_

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