I'm Sad

Hello. I have been lonely for many years. More than five when I stopped going out in the neighborhood. I had a lot of friends, it was fun, unforgettable, relaxing, a favorite ... However, I stopped going to them because their daily routine included soft drugs, haiming, soft drugs and possibly work. I find this absurd and depressing, because my acquaintances degrade, and I have always strived for improvement ... For five years I have had another type of good acquaintances, but not friends. Former colleagues, current colleagues, various managers, directors, etc. I know quite important people, BUT I am anxious and closed (which seems absurd once I have met such people) ... I am worried about inviting someone to go out for a beer , restaurant, bar, disco, etc. I can't dance, I can't deepen a relationship, I can't develop it. Not with these acquaintances. It was easy with the previous ones, because we were small, between 16 and 23 years old ... I'm probably not interested in the current ones. It's the same with women. I've had girlfriends, but my relationships have always been "childish" and we haven't taken serious steps like living together. Obviously the problem is in me, but I can't find it. Otherwise I would neutralize it for days ... Maybe I'm stupid, maybe something from my childhood interferes with the relationship, maybe I'm depressed. It could be all that. I was thinking of visiting a psychoanalyst, and that's how things seem to go. Please help. but I can't find it. Otherwise I would neutralize it for days ... Maybe I'm stupid, maybe something from my childhood interferes with the relationship, maybe I'm depressed. It could be all that. I was thinking of visiting a psychoanalyst, and that's how things seem to go. Please help. but I can't find it. Otherwise I would neutralize it for days ... Maybe I'm stupid, maybe something from my childhood interferes with the relationship, maybe I'm depressed. It could be all that. I was thinking of visiting a psychoanalyst, and that's how things seem to go. Please help.