I'm Not Ready For That ...

Hello, I never thought before that I would have to share my problems somewhere anonymously, but here that one never knows what life will bring him! So I start with my story, making sure it is more concise so as not to bore you with unnecessary details. For almost a year and a half I have been working in a restaurant, which is quite popular for the city where I live (Smolyan). When I started working here, I noticed that the other colleagues are quite close to each other and generally constantly make jokes and jokes with each other. In the beginning it was difficult for me to fit into the situation because in principle I am not a very sociable person, I am not so relaxed in front of new people, I always try to pay attention to how I behave, what I say to make a good impression. So over time, I got used to my colleagues and they got used to me, we got to know each other and I can say that I relaxed in front of them. Ever since I started working there, on my first day at work, I had an indecent offer from a boy who works as a driver-supplier of soft drinks to a company that loads our goods. The obscene suggestion was that he asked me directly if I wanted to be pushed into the truck. Of course I refused, no one has been so direct in my 20 years of life and I was definitely outraged. He kept coming every day and every time he made some hints to me, for example one time he came while I was helping the woman who was cleaning to wash the windows and he suggested that he was looking for someone to wash his in his apartment as well. The turning point in the story, however, came one night when he came as a guest of the restaurant and I had to serve him, everything was going well, until finally, while we were settling the bill, he didn't ask me if I wanted to go with him to the tavern "Bulgarian" in our city and that this was not a meeting but just to drink something and relax from the working atmosphere. I thought about it, but I wondered why we didn't go. We had a good time and as a result we had a tradition every week to go with company from work.

Over time, we began to become close, I had purely friendly intentions towards him, but he clearly showed his sympathy for me, bought me roses, took me from us, then sent me away, he really behaved extremely well. He invited me to a few meetings, and I decided it was right to give him a chance, because you never know where something unexpected might come from. In time, I began to realize that I was not indifferent to this man either, and he had managed to melt the ice walls, which surrounded my heart and so began our relationship. Almost immediately we started living together in his apartment while his brother was abroad, and when he came home we moved to mine. We have been together for a year and three months, and the problem is that he is already starting to talk to me about marriage and children, how he imagines the two of us with three children playing around us. Yes, I would like a family one day, but I'm still young, I don't feel ready for this step. And he presses me. Even the last two times we had sex, he purposely ended up in me hoping I would get pregnant. He knows I'm not ready, but he says that the moment the "miracle" called pregnancy happens, I will love the idea of ​​the little man. However, I did not tell him that I started taking contraceptives because I was afraid of his reaction. I tell you again, I don't mind being a mother and having a husband, but after 4/5 years, when I'm 25/6, I don't know why he's so fast, even though he's not elderly, we have a two-year difference. So my request is for advice, how to act in this confused situation and what will be the best solution? Thanks in advance!