I'm Not Able To Win The Trust Of The People

The Story

Hi, I'm a woman of 28. I'll try to be as brief as possible. This is a topic I wanted to write for some time now (maybe when I start to weigh this my problem). I do not manage to win people, do not manage to like me, and want to have something to do with me (proud of friendship, acquaintance). A lot of people have been through my life so far, starting from high school, for example, when it actually seemed like the problem started. Then from the university I met many colleagues, then from my 3 jobs, where I stayed for about 2 years on average. Nowhere in the above places have I been able to make friends. There are perhaps 4 people in common from those places that have liked me sincerely and with whom I could be close if I maintained this relationship. Somehow no one ever wanted to go outside the academic or professional environment. I'm pretty sure if I see one of these people, a big part of them would have passed me away without a salute. Overall this has never been my problem so far since I am an introvert. I feel no desire and pleasure in communicating with a large number of people. But the moment came when I started to feel such a need for an environment and close friendships. Even though I'm an introvert, that doesn't mean I'm rude to people, on the contrary, when I can help, I smile and try to be nice to them. Maybe unconsciously for me to be rude? I don't know. I've done things for acquaintances, and when I need something small, there's no one who can help me. For example, the boy I had my first serious relationship with was very sociable. Wherever we could, the crust was communicating with him, even exchanging contacts, and eventually looking for and befriend. I can't. People avoid me like I have something written on my forehead. Here are some happenings. On one of my jobs, just a week or two after my initiation, a colleague just let her tell me, "You don't have girlfriends in London, do you? Where are you from? " I am from London and I do not know what I have made her come to such a conclusion, yes,, do not communicate non-stop, but even to such conclusions can be reached in 2 weeks acquaintance. The freshest example is that I started working at the reception in one hotel and only a week after that I was moved to another position under the pretext that my English is not on the level, but it is not. They put a new employee in this position. Again, it has to do with the fact that people do not like me, and because of not my representative type (I will mention what I mean later). Or yesterday, the two girls that I fell in to be roommates were come out late at night (we're abroad for tourism), they didn't bother to invite me or even mention their intentions. And the day before that, we joked and laughed with each of them. Here, even to communicate with them and etc, they just shun me at the end and don't want me to be their company. Let me describe myself. As a person I am quiet, modest, but I have my self-esteem, although I demonstrate it only if necessary. I have my normal interests as music, movies, others, I'm joking. But in general, maybe I'm a boring interlocutor. Visually pass for sympathetic, except for one drawback, which perhaps is a key. I have complexes for him, but I'm not demonstrating that. I have male hair loss, which means my hair is thin and it can be seen from miles away. Sometimes I see people with whom I talk about how they look at me if I am on the 2nd day after washing hair. On this subject there is nothing to do, I drink drugs, but it is not something that is treated, but only maintained. On the first day after washing it can be seen less, swallowed, but the next is just ugly, what to talk about and I think that with this I also repel, not wanting to be around me. And I can't wash it every day because in the long run, it would be bad. Wigs the same is not my option and please do not recommend me masks and others. Just because I know more about the questions than the dermatologists I've visited. That's the reason I have very few pictures of myself. At the same time, my disadvantage is not dying compared to someone else's other problems. And you'd say that whoever's not superficial won't care. But we all know that everyone wants to be up and with some "cool". But I think that even without this flaw, I would still have the problem with my infirmity of earning people. But I don't know why that's why I'm writing this topic. If I can get advice, recommendations. What do you think I am, why people are wandering away from me? Otherwise, I'm not stupid, bathe often, and I really don't know what it is. I hope the topic will be published because I no longer know how to behave and what to do.

Last Updated
May 26, 2020
Author:
mu_bi

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