I'm In Love With My Best Friend Who Has A Boyfriend.

Please do not say that it was invented because it is not !!! He is my best friend and we are complete opposites. How are we friends then? First, ours work in the same place and are pretty good friends, second, we study in a high school. For the first 7 years we were not in the same school and we saw each other sometimes when my mother and I went to them. And why am I going with her? Don't I have friends? I have friends, but my mother is very rarely at home because she is a workaholic and has two jobs. One works it when he wants and that's why he works it 4 times a week. When mom is at home I will be with friends, and only when she goes to friends I have more time to spend with her somehow. My father left me, but this is another story I will not write. I know most of my friends from my mother, it's not just the boy I like, but just my mother most often goes to them. When her mother comes to us, Gabrielle (the boy I like) doesn't come. Sometimes I talk to him when our mothers talk to each other. We are opposites and we understand each other somehow. From high school we fell into a class and became closer that way. Once we had a project and we had to choose 3 and a friend chose both of us and his ex with whom they were together for almost 1 year. When he doesn't have a boyfriend, he sleeps with everyone and I wouldn't be surprised if he slept with half the school. He may be a whore, but he never dumps his girlfriends or cheats on them. I don't know how it happened. I have a strange feeling from last year, but then I did not realize what was happening to me. What to do? I don't want to lose friends for such nonsense. I didn't even want to fall in love because of my past. Tell me how to experience it ..