I'm In Love With My Best Friend-nycking19

Hmm ... let's start like this ... 2 weeks ago I accidentally found this interesting site and started reading the stories of people in which more or less each of us "recognizes", so little by little I started to I rummage through people's writings, but over time I wondered if it would be good to share what weighs on me, as they said sharing a little or a lot helps (no matter that it's on the Internet :)) I'm a boy at the age of 18, an athlete with a good appearance, strong character and principles that I hold dear! I live with my mother and my sister (who is 4 years younger), and in general I make sure that they are alive, healthy and happy, as much as I can and a male job in us as much as you want :), but do not think that I complain on the contrary! I am glad that I have been facing life since I was a child (13-14 years old) and now I am more confident, that I would manage as soon as life and health separate from the "home" :) I decided to write here about a "problem" that has been bothering me lately and as I guess I am talking about Love! My love for a girl. A girl so beautiful, beautiful, smart and shining in my eyes! She is 17, and we have known her since we can remember, from very young 2-3rd grade. It was my first kiss with this girl, even if we were little then, it remains a wonderful memory for a lifetime. Ever since we started to come to our senses little by little (the last 2-3 years) we have been super close friends (best friends or there as the cliché goes; D). We gather 1 in another, sleep with them, and with us and everything was fine. But (here comes the culmination of xD) in the last few months, say 3-4, I've started to feel somehow different around her, I started to get dumb when she told me that she was with her friend somewhere (by friend I mean, the first and true love that ended "supposedly" but still the 1st love is the 1st love - I remember it all my life) and so on. we have a somewhat complicated relationship on the part of love, there have been cases in which we have had "intimate contacts" but everything has stopped in its infancy, because we are both supposedly reasonable and do not want to spoil a friendship that has lasted 9-10 years . We talked about it, but on the side, but she says to herself that she doesn't want to ruin something we've been building for so many years. And on the one hand she's right, isn't she ... Nobody knows if things will work out, although we have a hell of a lot of time spent together and we are used to each other ... And in the end, this is my problem .. I know we are still young to think things through, but let me tell you about love, there are no limits and barriers! SHE is all around us, we just need to open our eyes and see her :) I hope I haven't bored you with my story, and I sincerely hope some more experienced than me will give me some and other advice on what I can do about the question, because I really have "ROLL" feelings in me and they just crush me! .. PS: I love you (yes, dd) I apologize from now on for spelling mistakes, punctuation and the like, for the simple reason that there are many experts on the net who instead of sitting and looking just spit on the others! Thanks for your attention and hope for advice ^ _ ~ | Cheer | for site creators:] ) I hope I haven't bored you with my story, and I sincerely hope that someone more experienced than me will give me some other advice on what I can do about it, because I really have "ROLL" feelings and they just crush me! .. PS: I love you (yes, dd) I apologize from now on for spelling mistakes, punctuation and the like, for the simple reason that there are many experts on the net who instead of sitting and looking just spit on the others! Thanks for your attention and hope for advice ^ _ ~ | Cheer | for site creators:] ) I hope I haven't bored you with my story, and I sincerely hope that someone more experienced than me will give me some other advice on what I can do about it, because I really have "ROLL" feelings and they just crush me! .. PS: I love you (yes, yes; dd) I apologize from now on for spelling mistakes, punctuation and the like, for the simple reason that there are many experts on the net who instead of sitting and looking just spit on the others! Thanks for your attention and hope for advice ^ _ ~ | Cheer | for site creators:] punctuation and the like, for the simple reason that many experts on the net have come forward, who instead of sitting down and looking at each other just spit on others! Thanks for your attention and hope for advice ^ _ ~ | Cheer | for site creators:] punctuation and the like, for the simple reason that many experts on the net have come forward, who instead of sitting down and looking at each other just spit on others! Thanks for your attention and hope for advice ^ _ ~ | Cheer | for site creators:]