Hello everyone. Until recently I was with my friend and his friends, the time is 01:29 and at the moment I am so confused and desperate that sleep does not catch me and I have no idea how I will fall asleep. We have been together for 1 month now. For more than 1 year I was looking for and was waiting for a person who would truly love me and of course respect me. I always found the "right" one in handsome and muscular boys, but I never found it. So I decided to look for something real and found it. My friend is from another city and is neither handsome nor muscular, but he loves me really much. He tells me it and shows it to me every day. I also supposedly loved him a lot and I also showed him everything was fine until 6 days ago. I was on the beach for 1 day with my parents since then I got sick. We haven't stopped seeing him, but something has changed since then. I don't know what's going on, whether the initial love affair passed and I got used to it or I just don't have feelings for it anymore. When I'm here I don't even want to think about him, and at other times I say I like him. I also talked to my mother. She convinces me that I have feelings for him, but just falling in love and those really strong initial feelings are gone. I wish it were true, but I don't think I like it anymore. I don't think about him constantly as before, I don't write to him or call him, I don't want to kiss him, I forget to say I love you, which makes him very angry (I forgot again tonight), I look at other guys (and they in me), I write to other guys, I think what would it be like if I was with one of THEM even though I know I won't be better, but it still goes through my mind. Last night we were together with 2 of his friends, one of whom is a great friend. When he was there, my friend stayed in second place and I didn't pay much, much attention to him, but I tried to disguise the situation. Tonight he came again and just looked at me all the time, I tried not to pay attention to him and to focus on my friend as it should be. Today I was much colder with him than other times and he of course felt it and he asked me what's nice, I told him nothing, what to tell him, well, I don't know if I still have feelings for you. I also want to point out that I'm a virgin and I haven't slept with him yet, because he said he wasn't in a hurry, and now that I'm in this confused state I have no idea how I'm going to sleep with him and I don't even want to kiss him. Can anyone tell me if he had such a problem and if you think I really have no feelings for him anymore. I don't want to leave him, because I know that I will not find someone better than him and someone who loved her so much and then I will regret it, and at the same time I do not know how it will be with him as I do not even want to approach him. Give me advice on what to do and please don't spit on me because I really don't know what's going on with me and I want it fixed.
1 carolinevreeland answered
You're fooling the boy, and you're fooling yourself. You better separate, I've been in such a situation, and the more time passes, the harder it becomes to end, and the other person clings even more than the fact that you are more withdrawn from him. But think about the fact that the option to "rediscover" it after you split up is not to be ruled out, but then it's more complicated.