Hello. I feel terrible ... Please don't judge me. I'm 13 years old. I wasn't very interested in whether I had a boyfriend or something. I don't like to talk much about these things. I like to dress in black. With wider clothes. I also like to paint graffiti. Yes, I know some of you will say, this is vandalism, but what can I do. I go out with boys just to kick a ball or walk on levers and find each other. Soon the girls I knew started talking about boyfriends, "love" and other things. They asked me and I didn't say anything. One day it was kind of weird that I didn't have a "targeted boy" yet. I don't like boys at school because they are all either found and pretended to be heavy or they are very weak and annoying. My school is up to 12th grade and it's really a nightmare ... But ... there was one boy ... he was different from the others. I don't feel anything when I see him, but I think I like him, I'm confused. My "friends" sometimes told me I was gender, but I didn't care because I knew I wasn't. But I don't know anymore. What if I really am ... I can't accept myself like that ... I don't know if I really am, but if it's true ... I don't know what to do ... sometimes I've thought about it, but I haven't come up with a specific answer . I can't share it with anyone because I'm afraid that no one will want to go out with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind homosexuals. I even have gay acquaintances. But I've heard people say they're some kind of "junk" (excuse me) Please help me, no matter what, I want to gather some thoughts. Please. that I am a gender, but I was not affected because I knew I was not. But I don't know anymore. What if I really am ... I can't accept myself like that ... I don't know if I really am, but if it's true ... I don't know what to do ... sometimes I've thought about it, but I haven't come up with a specific answer . I can't share it with anyone because I'm afraid that no one will want to go out with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind homosexuals. I even have gay acquaintances. But I've heard people say they're some kind of "garbage" (sorry) Please help me, no matter what, I want to gather some thoughts. Please. that I am a gender, but I was not affected because I knew I was not. But I don't know anymore. What if I really am ... I can't accept myself like that ... I don't know if I really am, but if it's true ... I don't know what to do ... sometimes I've thought about it, but I haven't come up with a specific answer . I can't tell anyone because I'm afraid no one will want to go out with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind homosexuals. I even have gay acquaintances. But I've heard people say they're some kind of "junk" (excuse me) Please help me, no matter what, I want to gather some thoughts. Please. but I have not come to a specific answer. I can't share it with anyone because I'm afraid that no one will want to go out with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind homosexuals. I even have gay acquaintances. But I've heard people say they're some kind of "junk" (excuse me) Please help me, no matter what, I want to gather some thoughts. Please. but I have not come to a specific answer. I can't tell anyone because I'm afraid no one will want to go out with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mind homosexuals. I even have gay acquaintances. But I've heard people say they're some kind of "junk" (excuse me) Please help me, no matter what, I want to gather some thoughts. Please.