Hi! I'm 18, a girl, and I have a boyfriend who's a few years older than me, we're in a long-distance relationship, and on November 4th we're going to do three months. The boy is more than wonderful and is all I've ever wanted - kind, caring, funny, he's lovely. The problem is that a few days ago we decided with a close friend to grab a drink and sit somewhere, We took 1 beer, but we both started to get dizzy quickly and quite quickly caught us, then this girl's boyfriend and another boy came, she had called them on the phone so that if we got too drunk we could get home. They were carrying vodka, where we drank vodka and we got completely drunk, we started to stape, beat each other up, I ended up being so drunk that I couldn't move, I just lay on a bench and listened to my friend and boyfriend fight, bottles were thrown, things broke, and I finally realized they got into a fight because she didn't stop drinking. It's just us and the other boy. He started checking us well, did we need anything and I was very cold and he gave me his jacket and hugged me. I was super inadequate, and I hugged him too. Then I got a little closer and managed to get up, but then I made the biggest mistake, I'm a virgin, and I wouldn't cheat when I slept with someone, but with the boy in question we started making out, kissing, he started touching me down, unzipping my zipper, even drunk, I knew I wouldn't do anything, but I don't even know why I did this. Pressing and kissing lasted 2-3 minutes, then I realized where things were going, I realized what I was doing and I just stopped. The boy himself got very angry, but I told him he couldn't get up and I had a friend and he yelled at me when I had a boyfriend what I was doing with him, and I was more aware of it at the time and told him that I didn't know literally what world I was in, but I already realized and I'm sorry and I don't think it's ok, my close friend also defended me in front of him. Then the two of them sent me almost to us because I didn't want him to know where I lived and I came home. I don't know what I did, but I feel terrible, my friend knows I got drunk, but not the other thing that happened. When I got home, he kept texting me if I was okay, how I was, is everything okay, and what I'm doing during that time... And the boy in question, who I was making out with, I didn't even feel anything about him when we kissed, on top of that he's 30 and 12 years old, and I don't like him or anything. I'm just a little beginner in kissing, and I guess that's how I wanted to not embarrass myself in front of my boyfriend, because when we saw each other, I didn't even kiss with a tongue because I was worried, and with that boy, I was most comfortable kissing, I don't even know what I did with my tongue, but I guess he liked it. I really don't know why I did it, even the boy sent me an invitation on Facebook, I don't want anything to do with him, what it was that night, that's all. It only reassures me that my friend, when he's off, may have done such a thing sometime, but on the other hand, it's not for reassurance at all. How would you define what I did? Is she slapping? Do you think she's cheating? Is k**ve on what I did?
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