I'm Ashamed Of Myself

The Story

I'm a girl who likes boys usually. When I pass tall, slender, handsome boys, I always look at them. I'm starting to imagine being with the boy I like, but it's always a short period. Rather, I perceive boys as support, friendship, as they will always keep you. But I have never suffered because of a boy, the strange thing is that I have suffered because of a girl. I recently met a girl, and I thought we might meet because I don't have many friends, and I'm more lonely. At first I thought we were friends and I don't know what happened to me, but something kept me chasing her. I didn't talk to her because I doubted that something strange was happening to my feelings and I was very ashamed ... Over time, I started to imagine her more and more, to get up and go to bed thinking about her, she became my only target. I don't know what was going on, but I realized that maybe I was in love - with a girl! It was awful, my thoughts didn't leave me alone, I did everything I could to stop this, but it didn't work. I fell in love with her even if we didn't talk once. I imagined kissing and hugging, nothing more. But when I think about sex with a girl and I don't feel very happy ... I wouldn't do it. My love for every principle is platonic - no sex, just kisses and hugs. But it's been a long and difficult year since I fell in love with a girl, now it's over, but no matter how much it hurts, because I haven't told anyone about my feelings, I still want to be in love, but with another girl. I don't know why this happens, I'm burning with desire to meet a girl who really loves me and I love her ... I know I would, but let people write here, who won't make fun of it because I'm going to cut my veins after all because I'm bisexual ? I'm ashamed of myself a lot, so I can't easily relax in female company, because I know what I am, but I wouldn't tell anyone. I'm not crazy, but many times I wanted to kiss a person of my gender, as if I was terribly curious. And it never occurred to me to tremble and my heart beat fast when I saw the boy I liked, but it happened to my girl every day. I would never press a girl to push us, but when I think about it, if they offer me, I would not refuse, as long as I like the girl, because I like blue-eyed people ... Has anyone been in such a situation? that's why I can't easily relax in female company, because I know what I am, but I wouldn't tell anyone. I'm not crazy, but many times I wanted to kiss a person of my gender, as if I was terribly curious. And it never occurred to me to tremble and my heart beat fast when I saw the boy I liked, but it happened to my girl every day. I would never press a girl to push us, but when I think about it, if they offer me, I would not refuse, as long as I like the girl, because I like blue-eyed people ... Has anyone been in such a situation? that's why I can't relax easily in female company, because I know what I am, but I wouldn't tell anyone. I'm not crazy, but many times I wanted to kiss a person of my gender, as if I was terribly curious. And it never occurred to me to tremble and my heart beat fast when I saw the boy I liked, but it happened to my girl every day. I would never press a girl to push us, but when I think about it, if they offer me, I would not refuse, as long as I like the girl, because I like blue-eyed people ... Has anyone been in such a situation? which I like, but it happened to my girl every day. I would never press a girl to push us, but when I think about it, if they offer me, I would not refuse, as long as I like the girl, because I like blue-eyed people ... Has anyone been in such a situation? which I like, but it happened to my girl every day. I would never press a girl to push us, but when I think about it, if they offer me, I would not refuse, as long as I like the girl, because I like blue-eyed people ... Has anyone been in such a situation?

Last Updated
October 19, 2020
Author:
antonn7521

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