Lately, I have become very antisocial, insecure, and irritable. I do not know what the reason is. What do I do all day? I watch movies, sleep a lot, eat and just sit at home (unless I have to do some work outside). Somehow I have the feeling that I avoid everyone on my own, but it's as if they avoid me. I don't think anyone cares how I'm doing right now and whether I'm alive. It wasn't like that before (in my opinion). I had friends with whom I could tell myself everything, but nothing is forever I guess. We were a group. I went into it first and then "added" my best friend. Before she joined the group, she was such a good girl. We had a lot of fun and I would bet we both relied a lot on each other. Now absolutely everyone has changed - they have become puffed muffins. And the saddest thing is that my girlfriend and I did not stop arguing about the smallest things. These "friends" of ours did not stop teasing us that we are not becoming best friends. I thought, "Yes, some other person's opinion will divide us," and I told her.
She seemed to think so. One day we quarreled very fiercely. We didn't take offense or anything, but the conversation itself was nasty. We ended up saying that our years of friendship were in vain. We got angry as always and I as I am - I can not be angry with anyone and I forgive a lot and decided to see you and get better. We seemed to be fine, everything was okay, and since then she has been arrogant and irritating. I didn't understand why, since I was a good girl. At one point, I just decided there was no point in poisoning my nerves with her. I stopped writing to her and we stopped going out. Now they are with the group, in the pictures there is that "we love each other" and a similar topic. They totally forgot me.
Since then, I have found it difficult to communicate with people. When I communicate with someone, it always happens that we do not understand something, do not explain correctly, quarrel, or maybe bore a person (this is how I feel). Even at home, the situation is like this - scandals 24/7. When I try to talk normally and kindly to my mother, she ignores me. And when we fight, she tells me that I didn't treat her like that ... "You can't notice that I'm like that if you ignore me." Maybe because our family has a bad trait, we argue and we have difficult characters. However, people have told me that they are fine in my company. I do not understand.
In general, this year is the maturity of my social life. I don't think I will continue like this. If I have to change what do you think is the problem and in whom? Any advice to give me if I am the problem and what to do about it ???
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