I'm Afraid

The Story

Hello. I would very much like to consult the experience of thousands of users on this great site. In general, I have always considered myself earthy and sober. I look at every situation sensibly and try to accept it philosophically. But here I am at the age of 29, and I still feel the biggest loneliness. I have a relationship that should be serious. But again, he is not the person I would like to start a family with. And I'm so scared to be alone again. I had never felt this way before and it was unfamiliar to me. Until now, as something did not work in my relations, one of the two parties terminated them and I continued to move forward. I have not fallen into extreme dramas. Before I started my current relationship, I was alone for a long time. Where by choice, where because I did not meet anyone. I have self-confidence, I have an interest in the opposite sex, but I never wanted to commit to anyone at any cost .... if only I wasn't alone. Don't get me wrong, I don't have any unrealistic or super criteria. And now I do not end my current relationship precisely for fear that years will pass again and I will be in this "hole" again like some prostitute alone. How do I know when I will meet a person again, how do I know if we will not be disappointed with him ...

Before, when I was younger, I imagined life without starting a family. I even looked at my bound friends a little ironically. But now I'm afraid of being alone again. I want to get out of this depression and be the old cheerful girl, to have self-confidence and self-confidence again. I no longer know if I have to come to terms with my current relationship, with the fact that I'm not happy ... To look at the positive sides ... I read here how many people tolerate situations that do not satisfy them and I begin to wonder if this is not right. I am the age I want to be, to have peace and a stable person next to me, to create a home, to have a child. To be loved and I to love.

Well, I have no peace of mind, I don't know if we will ever create our own home with the person next to me, because he is too attached to his mother and mother's home ... Dear people, do we have to make such big compromises with ourselves and our understandings? Should we be so humble and bow our heads so often, or should I continue boldly and seek my happiness, at least close to what I imagine? to have a child. To be loved and I to love. Well, I have no peace of mind, I don't know if we will ever create our own home with the person next to me, because he is too attached to his mother and mother's home ...

Dear people, do we have to make such big compromises with ourselves and our understandings? Should we be so humble and bow our heads so often, or should I continue boldly and seek my happiness, at least close to what I imagine? to have a child. To be loved and I to love. Well, I have no peace of mind, I don't know if we will ever create our own home with the person next to me, because he is too attached to his mother and mother's home ... Dear people, do we have to make such big compromises with ourselves and our understandings? Should we be so humble and bow our heads so often, or should I continue boldly and seek my happiness, at least close to what I imagine?

Last Updated
August 06, 2020
Author:
khorni_valerya0808

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