I'm 29, but now I feel like I'm entering life. I'm a "late bloomer", from "English" people in their 20s or 30s who start to feel good for one reason or another, work / social status/money/expression/body to sleep with or gain popularity/attraction from the opposite sex. Sometimes categorized as scholarly when they were in school. "
My problem is that I haven't started looking at chicks now, but now I seem to have lost my fear. I had 2 boyfriends, only having sex with only one, it was a long time ago and I didn't even use my potential because I was afraid to express myself and lead, which made me congested.
Self-pity doesn't come out of my head, I don't want to feel sorry for myself, why didn't I go through certain things as a younger, younger, how can I do it now as girls now women expect something different from me, and not to behave like an inexperienced teenager. And when I see a 20-year-old girl, my heart breaks and I always feel like I've wasted my last years without doing anything in that direction that even just sex is just for fun and to try to know what to do when I'm attracted. to a woman, or provided that I accept her as a potential spouse. When I like a girl not someone close to my age, but 21 years old, for example, I just repeat to myself how my time has passed and that I have to look at someone 7 years older / older.
This is my problem left over the years, now as I said it's different, I'm sure, they can't just invade my personal space, I'm cocky, I know what I want, I'm alpha by definition :), but when it comes to women, boyfriends, experience in this thing, I overwhelm myself with thoughts like "now if I was 20, but I'm already 29" it seems to weigh on me that I have to admit to someone that I am a teenager on this topic but I am 29.
Sometimes I like someone 21 years old and I want to have fun, or just sex or a relationship, no one knows, but I say to myself "am I old for her already, am I not", I go back to her age to remember how I am felt when one of my peers was dating a 29-year-old.
You can write whatever you want as a comment, I tried to be honest and share the most hidden thoughts on the topic, to be clean in front of myself, only then can I get adequate help. I don't have bad thoughts about women or thinking about how to use them.
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