Hello! I was 33 when we met. And he's 52. I don't know how I fell in love with him. We had a relationship for 7 years as in fairy tales. We lived together. But the problem is that he was very jealous of me. He started following me. It hurt like hell to doubt me. I once went to a colleague's birthday party. He knew, of course. We were all colleagues. Me and the other girls stayed to sleep at the birthday party. A spectacular scandal awaited me the next day. I explained and explained. He told me not to call him. He didn't call me for three days. Then one morning I saw him watching me from home to work. It bothers me. I told myself if I didn't trust him why I should be with him. I didn't call him again. He didn't call me either. He is very proud. After about 2-3 months he called me - he was crying on the phone - how could I dump him in the most difficult moment for him (health problem). I started explaining again. So gradually we started meeting again - just as friends. He behaved again as before — terribly kind. We started having sex after about a year of friendship. Let's help each other again. One day I called him, but a woman picked me up. It hurt terribly. I texted him that I did not want to interfere with his future and if I knew there was another I would never meet him. He immediately called - I did not say nonsense and that he only loves me. Our meetings continued. I was trying to find out if there was a serious relationship. He said no. But she was ringing. Then he told me that he could not forgive me for running away from him and that he thought I had cheated on him. And I swear by everything holy and to this day I have not been with another man. Except he doesn't believe me. He loves me so hard. He cheated on me. I know. It hurts terribly. I want everything to be the same as before. But we meet or hear on the phone as if only as friends. I ask - after claiming that he loves me why he is not with me again. I can forgive infidelity. It's hard for me, but my love is more salivating. Please tell me what to do However, the difference in our age is not small. I can not live without him. I can't be with another man. I'm not even sure if he loves me anymore. I don't even know what he wants. For all these questions I ask him, I do not get a specific answer. S says he loves me. But this is not always the case. He told me recently - let it hurt you to see what it is. Is he doing it for revenge? I want him to love me as before. Sorry, my letter took a long time, and maybe a lot of confusion. But it hurts terribly and I need your help. What should I do? I want to be with him and I only love him, but I can't understand what he wants. This situation does not suit me at the moment.
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And I think I'm going to die of love. It turns out that life can really be complicated and not what we imagined it would be ... I will not give you advice. I also have a personal drama (like everyone else), I've written here, I've read a lot about it, I've consulted with friends ... I don't even want to talk to my girlfriends about it anymore. They irritate me by giving advice - as if their advice is the right one ... I don't know what is right, but I will understand it one day ... Listen to your inner self ... maybe it will speak ..