Hi, maybe I'm another woman who tells a similar story and makes the same mistake I'm in right now. Understand, this is really masochism or a thrill of being sick. I'm 24 years old. I recently broke up with a boy to whom I was very attached, and he was making me sick in every way, telling me not to show my feelings and not to trust him. I thought it would be short, but it lasted a little longer and I fell in love.
I couldn't overcome it, it was very difficult. I looked for all sorts of substitutes so as not to think about him, I found a job that relieved me and thanks to it I was able to completely overcome it. I overcame it, I said enough and I will not bother with inappropriate people anymore and here I met a married man, right at this job, older than me by over 20 years. I didn't think about what I was starting, and he didn't think about me, though he warned me that it would be difficult for us since he had already slept with me. I'm obviously too stupid not to think about myself. And we both fell in love. I knew that the moment would come when we had to part, and now I feel it. If we continue, we will suffer.
I show it to him, I prepare it, and I can't say a word to him about it. I do not know-how. And we promised ourselves a lot and I promised. Tell me things I can't help but bandage. People, I dreamed of meeting my soulmate, in every way, but I'm already sorry because we met at the wrong time and situation. I had a period in which I felt good, happy, strong, and ready for anything. I was not as empty as I am now. I have this person next to me, and at the same time, he is not next to me. I've never liked a man so much. In general, my men become uninteresting and elementary.
At the beginning a thrill, an interest until you realize that you have to take some other step and the person next to you can't. It happens, I progress forward, at a fast pace and I can't stay for long with one way of thinking. I am annoyed by the monotony. And I myself am different every day. Come on, I accepted to have a wife, I resigned myself, but for me, people are an open book. Looking at the man in front of me, I already know what he is doing, how he lives, and what he thinks. I guess you've heard of such abilities and know for sure that they exist.
I developed them and I'm somewhat happy to own them, to some extent not. Do you know why "no"? Because I know there is even another mistress. I even feel when they're together, it just comes out and I know that he has been in touch with her for at least a year. I am glad that I am often given warning signs. She is a sales consultant in a grocery store. Do you think that I wish him a happy stay with her, that he leaves me on my way and that he is happy with her? From the very beginning, before I started with him, I saw her and said to myself: "this is the other one". Do not think that I am constantly standing and thinking and thinking...
I live my life, work and at some point scenes appear before my eyes, although I think about much more important things. Since we talk about everything, there is no topic that is foreign to us, I plan to ask him why he started with me when there is another. But he doesn't even know I know. I am not an evil person, I am not vindictive, I always part with good. And even if my ex calls me, I don't mind hearing them and knowing how it is. How to part after, as everything is still so fresh? We say kind words to each other, the fact that he tells me that he needs me and he couldn't do without me, I have the feeling that he wants to keep me, but he doesn't know how difficult it is for me. Thank you!
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