I Will Be Left Alone-moluskuz

The Story

Hello! I'm 19 and as you can see from the title - I'll talk about loneliness and how I've felt for a hell of a long time. Before I move on to my story, I'll tell you a little more about me to give you some idea. I will start by saying that I do not belong to the stereotype that is prevalent today. I am more or less pretty in the face (at least I consider myself one), I have medium-long hair in sky blue color (I love pastel colors and for the 3rd year I always dye in such colors), my facial skin is not the most -problematic, but it happens that I get another pimple or blackheads appear. The body - 169 I am tall and I am 54 kg, I do not train, so I am a little relaxed, but I do not consider myself fat, because I am really completely in the norm. I am talkative, I have no problem communicating with people. My style of dress is quite unusual - I like to mix black clothes with pastels (something like pastel goth), I like metal / rock and from time to time I listen to rap. I have a few tattoos (not big) and a lower lip piercing. I work at a cash register in a supermarket and take 700 leva, which is quite enough for me, strange as it may sound. I've just been taught to save and spend wisely since I was little, so I know how to handle it. And now to my problem - boyfriends. I have absolutely never had a boyfriend, I have never kissed, therefore I have never had sex. At first, when I was in school I thought it was normal, despite the fact that many of my girlfriends were starting to have boyfriends bothering me I told myself there was time. I have 4 best friends - two of them are my age, the other is one year younger than me, and the latter two years younger. We share a hell of a lot and I know absolutely everything about them down to the smallest detail. Everyone has already done it, some of them even with 3-4 boys, have extensive experience with boyfriends, only I stay isolated and alone. I'm terrible. Nothing happens to me. They tried to match me with a boy and finally the boy told them that he didn't like me, that I wasn't pretty, etc. I will never forget how one of my friends called a boy to meet me and he literally said " You, if you're going to match me with this ugly one, you didn't know, "I burst into tears and left. I have the feeling that I will always be alone, that no one will like me and I will die alone. some of them, even with 3-4 boys, have extensive experience with boyfriends, only I stay isolated and alone. I'm terrible. Nothing happens to me. They tried to match me with a boy and finally the boy told them that he didn't like me, that I wasn't pretty, etc. I will never forget how one of my friends called a boy to meet me and he literally said " You, if you're going to match me with this ugly one, you didn't know, "I burst into tears and left. I have the feeling that I will always be alone, that no one will like me and I will die alone. some of them, even with 3-4 boys, have extensive experience with boyfriends, only I stay isolated and alone. I'm terrible. Nothing happens to me. They tried to match me with a boy and finally the boy told them that he didn't like me, that I wasn't pretty, etc. I will never forget how one of my friends called a boy to meet me and he literally said " You, if you're going to match me with this ugly one, you didn't know, "I burst into tears and left. I have the feeling that I will always be alone, that no one will like me and I will die alone. I will never forget how one of my friends called a boy to meet me and he literally said "You, if you're going to match me with this ugly one, you didn't know me", I burst into tears and left. I have the feeling that I will always be alone, that no one will like me and I will die alone. I will never forget how one of my friends called a boy to meet me and he literally said "You, if you're going to match me with this ugly one, you didn't know me", I burst into tears and left. I have the feeling that I will always be alone, that no one will like me and I will die alone.

Last Updated
September 18, 2020
Author:
moluskuz

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