I Was Wrong And I Feel Terrible.

The Story

Hello, dear people! I've decided to write here because I don't have anyone to share my pain with right now. I made a huge mistake, which I can't forgive myself and my heart breaks... I'm going to start from the fact that I have a longstanding relationship with someone. Things have always been going well between us. We understand each other and support each other. But perhaps from the uniformity and for so long together my thrill to this man disappeared. I'm not saying I stopped loving it, but to me it seemed like the thrill that was in the beginning disappeared. I wish I could relive those moments of falling in love, crazy passion, butterflies in my stomach... And then it happened that I accidentally met another person. We met on a website and started writing day and night. After a while we started having long conversations on the phone, getting to know each other and realized that we like each other and attract each other. We started seeing each other from time to time and we realized we were beginning to fall in love with each other. And really, everything that Preživâvahme together was wonderful and real. I got the variety and what I missed. I had no intention of falling in love, but I didn't want it to just happen. This man wants to be with me, shows me his love all the time, and I feel he is sincere. However, after I began to look more real at things, I realized that I could not continue this relationship forever. I told him I was tied up, that I couldn't drop everything, start from the beginning, and be with him, but he just doesn't want to give up on me... And I kind of don't want to either. But I can't leave the person I've been with for so long. I came to this point that I was wondering which one to choose... All this has caused me such a great pain... I know it doesn't sound good, what I did, and that it was all my fault, but I didn't mean for it to happen. I had no intention of falling in love. I feel terribly guilty and unhappy. I've decided to end this short-term relationship because I know it's wrong to stay with the person I'm with, because I don't want to hurt him, too. And now I have to do the hardest thing, to tell him that we're done with everything, no matter how pleasant and real it is and forget it, because this love is impossible. And I find it very difficult... I don't know how I'm going to be able to do this and forget it... I don't know how I'm going to look into the eyes and the person I'm with. It hurts me terribly much from everything that happened, I can not eat, I can not sleep, I cry almost every day... Please tell me what to do to stop me from hurting... Is there anyone of you who has been in a similar situation? How'd you do that? Does the weather cure such pain? Just express some opinion on the matter... I would be happy if you would give some advice on how to proceed from here:(

Last Updated
May 19, 2020