I Want To Enjoy The Moment

   This, as you describe it, is depression. Talk to your GP and tell him what you told us. He will refer you to a specialist, good luck :)

   You are lazy. Find a job and you won't have time to think nonsense.

   Change your daily routine. Start dating more honestly, dating. Everything is different. Go around somewhere, meaning a different city something. Go to the sea enough to drink a coffee. And I was like that and that's how I got better.

   I will copy my comment from another topic here. What you are describing is a mass phenomenon - depression. I'm not much better than you. But there came a time when procrastination, apathy, laziness became truly unbearable for me, I felt that I was about to get lost and I started reading. What did I not read psychology, religion, consciousness, subconscious, teachers, schools, teachings, positive energy, self-love, etc. And I came to the following conclusion: You may be the most talented, the most positive, the smartest, but if you do not cultivate self-discipline, all this will remain unmanifested. Everyone in this world has the potential for great deeds in a given field. But what great deeds if we can't go to bed, wake up, eat at the same time, if we can't decide to argue or study for an hour and follow that decision. If we lie down for another hour instead, watch another movie, tap the phone and the day is gone - we enter a comfort zone ... which is actually terribly uncomfortable, we suffer from guilt, we give birth to new fears, diseases, we associate. Then we work hard, we have a hard time building relationships, we don't fit in anywhere. My truth may not be yours, but incorporating structure into my daily life helps me tremendously. I think this is the beginning, the foundation. From there, cultivation, self-love, balance. But the first step, just striving to be happy with yourself is the key to health, to happiness, to everything. Keep taking care of yourself and playing sports. Try to do it at the same time, not to delay. If a person repeats the same action every day for 21 days, it takes root as a habit and requires less and less willpower, it starts coming from inside you, your body wants it. Look, not much 3 weeks. Challenge yourself.

   Let me ask, when do you go to bed? If you don't go to bed at the latest, but by ten at the latest, the brain can't build serotonin. In order not to give advice in vain, if you really go to bed late, do everything possible not to look at a phone, TV or computer after 8 pm. The room you sleep in must be dark. After eight you do household chores, help mom, this, forget friends and going out, wash your eyes at nine-thirty, ten at the latest and go to bed. If you do not feel sleepy, you support the area under the ribs with your hands, just like a massage, you press the abdomen in the most elementary way, and there is no way you can't fall asleep. Try and say if there is a change, but if you go to bed on time, the problem is elsewhere.

   Comment number 2 is a little harsh, but it's right. People who are lazy suffer from depression. Depression tells you to shut yourself up at home and not go out with anyone. The truth is, you have to do the exact opposite to save yourself. Through dangers is the way, and fear is the direction.