I Want To Die

   At least he did it competently - like the father and son under Botev.

   So, the first thing that came to my mind was. This man ... poor thing, but hardly the thing you want me to do is be compassionate and cry right now. As difficult as it sounds. You get upset in the world and in your life you smile and go on and tell yourself no one can influence my opinion. For example, right ... I really want to meet and talk and I strongly hope that this comment does not become TOO LONG, but that the site is anonymous and we are slightly limited by information. I want to tell you that, as incredible as it may seem to you, everything happens for a reason. Death, birth, going through periods that are difficult for us, but we learn the most from them! Take out a notebook and start writing only good moments that have happened to you and you are grateful -> there are always such thoughts well;) (For example: I am grateful, that I have healthy legs with which I can walk * some people and they don't have that *, I'm grateful that I have a family that loves me * I'm not an orphan * and the like). Another thing you can do is start playing sports and get your anger out of it, when you're angry run as fast as you can, go to boxing, volleyball or whatever you want. One of your decisions is Izabel - the vlogger. As crazy as it sounds, I really get inspired especially by the younger people aged 14-15, watch other vloggers to make you laugh, comedy movies to distract. And one of the most important things you read in books, this Isabel shared a book called "Happy" and inside she mentions her thoughts on suicide and how she copes with depression. There is always a way to remember that nothing is accidental - everyone is where they need to be! Good luck and only up!

   First, your life will not end with this woman! There are no unique people, nor irreplaceable. Second, you need a job right now, something positive in life. When you take a job, you will see how you will not think about it, how you will think about something else and your life will gain meaning. The work is time consuming enough. Find a hobby if you don't have one. Write your thoughts in a notebook. Give yourself a period of 3 months, for example, and see again what you wrote inside after 3 months and whether you will not be better then. Try to do something enjoyable for yourself every day, be it a movie, a book or a walk. You can buy new clothes or eat something sweet. It is no coincidence that the sweet lifts the mood. Get out, take a walk.

   Your problem is that you do not rely on yourself for your own life. No one else can do it to you, you are responsible. Don't waste your time and money with a therapist. If it gets very bad - a real psychiatrist and pills.

   I would explode in your place.

   I hope you get better - and I want to die. I am a woman Nowadays, the desire to die for lack of love is deadly. Hold on as long as you can. This is an epidemic. If you can, live with that pain. If you don't know the answer, die

   Remember one thing: absolutely every person has been at least once with a broken heart or unrequited love. People who look at the person in love with a broken heart will always say: stop thinking about her / him, write her off, move on, etc. But for the lover to hear, this is salt in the wound. Plus there are a lot of cases of people coming together after partitions, etc. So I will tell you instead of despairing fight for your love, look for it, make a gift, find a job of any kind (women love men who fight in life). Ask her from the heart and fight for her. There are 2 options or it will happen or it will not happen. If it happens, you will be the happiest person on earth, if it doesn't, it will be naughty, but time will pass and you will be calm because you will say to yourself: it didn't happen, but I tried, I fought, I gave my best. If you don't try you will regret it in time. This is my opinion,

   Man, calm down. And I have a lot of hard things happening to me right now, but let me kill myself too .. it's the easiest .. Life is hard, sometimes things like that happen. Take a lesson from things and try to develop, to be better than the person you were. Things will work out for you, have faith and act. "Some use the pain for a springboard, others to fall into a pit"

   Do not do it. You see, I myself have suffered from suicidal thoughts, but I have not taken my own life, because I realized that there is a possibility that tomorrow will be better than the previous one and everything will turn in my favor. A person is constantly changing and getting to know himself, you can gain self-confidence and meet people more easily or just the right people to find you. You only live once anyway, it's not worth taking your only life because someone dumped you and you don't have a stable profession ... We are still young, there is a lot of time to find happiness. I know I'm not very helpful, I'm not very good at giving advice, so I would say just talk to a psychologist, I've been doing this for several months and I feel much better now.

   I can't tell you that everything will be fine and fine. It is possible that in years to come things will be worse and you will be even more blown away. All I can say is that I understand you. I understand you perfectly.

   If I tell you not to do it - you will either ignore me or it will have the opposite effect. And maybe that's what you're looking for - to dissuade you. But understand one thing - there is no person in the world who has not had difficult moments and at least for a moment it did not occur to him to surrender and commit suicide. Even the most successful man in the world must have thought of such a thing at least once in his life. But know that everything passes. Then when it passes, it's a lot of fun because you're free. Also know that the human mind likes to exaggerate problems. One monk had said that if you built a brick wall, even if they were all perfect and only one was curved, your focus would always be on the single curve, not the other 99 perfect. Ie if the real problem is 1%, the other 99% is usually an illusion of the mind. You won't believe me right now, but I assure you, that the problem is far from as serious as you think, but you need time to realize it. Now you are immersed in the problem, but one day from the distance of time you will be able to look at it remotely and you will probably wonder in your mind that you wanted to commit suicide.

   How can he not dump you as a crocodile, you just complain. What did you do, you say everything, what is everything? You are jealous of her, you complain that you have no money, who is to blame for you not. And now, as a weak man, you will die. No woman will want to be like that. Either you tighten or you lose. Unnecessary dramas. First you grumble that you have no one, then that the family will suffer ... well, get tight. What do you expect to have at 26? It works and you will have. When you work, you will have a wife. Without a job, who will love you?

   What is your problem? Tighten up, work and make money. If you love a woman and she's obviously ready to be with you, but love really evaporates. I think you feel sorry for yourself and you also contradict yourself. Your assessment is not sober. First you say there is no one, then your family loves you. Get out of your comfort zone and act, not sink into self-pity. You are healthy, you have a woman who likes you, you can work, you have a family ..... what else do you miss. Go to an oncology hospital and walk down the corridors and you will see that you are not bad at all. Talk to a psychologist Jealousy is a disease. Your wife trusted you and came from somewhere, and what she tells you is right. Realize it. Start playing sports and just talk to someone. It is very easy to commit suicide. Besides being a pea, have RESPECT for the people who love you as you say. We are strangers and we all just want to help you. Whatever the world, your life is just normal against the horrors of the world. Do you know how many people dream of a glass of water and a piece of bread. Be realistic !!! Things are not as bad as you think. Collect your thoughts, get out of the house you need support, get out into the air after nature and think positively.

   I'm 27 years old. I have had an internet connection for 2 years. The difference between me and the girl is quite big. She is 18. Unlike you, we have never been out (seen live). Not due to lack of funds, it just happened. Like you, I'm very jealous, even she cheated on me. I explain this to tell you that I understand you perfectly and I understand what situation you are in. I tried everything to forget her, but to no avail. Things will not work out with suicide. Similar thoughts went through my mind. Try to talk to her seriously and say how you feel if you get rejected again, obviously she is not your wife, but do not despair. I know, you don't want to accept this thought, but if someone really loves you, they will love you in spite of everything ...! Good luck...

   I think you have to rethink your life, I understand that it hurts a lot, but imagine now you are 26 (I'm 28) there are many more vicissitudes you will go through, love hurts a lot, but you have to face it, for a start in this moment which is hellishly difficult for you, start dating more with friends, communicate with new people, in general, try to be in an environment that will cheer you up, do not be left alone, look for company and rethink things, you can always find something new to you are struggling, for example, for now I understand that you have to take a step to stabilize financially, do not think about this nonsense, this is another difficulty in life!

   I have been in this situation. I started exercising and I got better. Movement helps. You feel good. Another thing that helped me was that I started looking for another person next to me and I found him. Now that I look back, I realize that what I was feeling then is not a scary thing.

   Very often I want to die too, I just have bad years. No matter how hard I try and try, things just don't work out. At such moments I cry, cry and experience my pain. I'm not one of those people who hides their feelings. Experience the pain, get depressed, but then move forward boldly. As much as I'm not doing well, I'm not giving up. We will all die one day, but when we are destined. Be good and believe in the good, learn to love yourself and people. Find a job and you will see how you will focus and have self-confidence. No one wants a whining man who has no job and no ambition. You have to grow up.

   I started working very late, at your age, due to depression and similar chronic diseases. I can tell you that since I have been working I feel like a new, healthy person. My black thoughts are gone, I get distracted, I make money. Try it, it's time to work, you're even late. You will not believe how much better you will be.

   2, exactly with Isabel "Easy is a collar" do you give an example. This infantile laziness cannot be an example for anyone.

   And what, if you die of your own free will, all sorts of lumpens, thieves, debauchers and geeks will live after you, and you will not be greeted every new day? Do you think that such people deserve to live longer than you? If so, it's a pity. If not, congratulations, you place yourself above them, where your place is, and all you have to do is understand, Man, that life is a struggle, that love is not sought, but comes alone and that after every evil comes good ...

   Show how strong you are and get to your feet. When you fall, you get up, otherwise don't call yourself a Bulgarian!

   Do not give up. Try, as life treats you, so you treat him: if he is rude, you gnash your teeth at him, if he is kind, and you are polite. Bet on the good in people. I look at the buses weary people, careful and modest. They are worth living for. You look like a decent person, and there should be some. Don't appreciate women - they don't deserve it: shallow, flat, stupid egotists - it's them, with or without them, all this. Rather, they are a necessary evil.

   Among other things, I wanted to say that suicide is a disrespect to your father and mother - I don't think they deserve it.

   Think about how many others like you there are. Not everything can be good in this life. There are trials you have to go through and find out how many more important things there are, and you are dealing with a woman who does not deserve you! Correct me if I'm wrong. She is not the only one. You are given life, live it like people, love your family and do not dare to think about suicide. And you will meet a woman who will respect and appreciate you as you are. You will create a family and you must be the focus in it, tighten up and forget the past, look ahead to the future! :)