I Want To Be Alone, But I Want Someone To Love Me More!

   Exactly the same things are in my head ... One to one - and I don't know what to do anymore. M24

   In my opinion, you should also look for the reason inside you, and not only externally, similar to what you wrote.

   I also don't trust anyone, I was also betrayed by those closest to me. I also feel better alone or with a handful of people. Work on yourself, follow your dreams, do what you love. Don't force things, the right people will come and stay! I wonder the same when the world will change. Don't feel bad, it's not your fault, it's the fault of all the other angry, selfish people. If I am to remain the last normal person on this earth, I will not change. Everything will be fine. :)

   You make the world yourself. Start building it. You take a pen and write how you want to live, but in detail. From what you want to eat, what you feel, to who you want to treat you. Otherwise, there was a sketch by Maya Novoselska in "The Street": "But where did I go and I don't know what I want"

   "When the world will become a better place to live" - ​​When you realize that it does not revolve around you

   And it will get worse author! The world is so organized - everyone looks at himself, if he can stand out by fucking the other ... The author will not get rid of intrigue, because he lives in an ideal world - a utopia, where everyone helps each other and the system works as it should work . The truth is that now everyone has sick parents, insufficient salary against the background of unemployment. There are no ideals, no dreams, just surviving day by day! Who cares and lives in the ideal naive world, or ends up in a madhouse, or underground! Only those who "move it from one leg to the other" survive (as my colleagues say) and are interested in taking their patch, drinking brandy, fixing their wife and watching the news ... For them, people like the author are naive, worthy of ridicule and humiliation ... The reasons are many, author! I only listed one small one,

   Times are fierce, so are people. Avoiding beasts is normal. Traitors, not friends, it's better to know that there is no one behind you than to wonder how many knives to expect when the time comes in your life to focus forward, every crisis is an opportunity. Now at least you can safely focus in the right direction for you. They love those who forgive and forget, not those who remember. Surely someone there loves you, do not despair, when it is written, you will meet him. To be brave, you have to know what fear is, the rest is stupidity. Real people are like diamonds, they are rare and are usually surrounded by ordinary and uniform stones, but that does not make them stones, they leave diamonds. Like them, real people suffer from being surrounded by fakes. I, like you, sought the quantity, but I came to the truth and understood, that it is not quantity that matters, but quality. I may have a friend, but he is real, tested and proven for 15 years. I may have quarreled with him, but when we reconciled again we had both forgiven and forgotten, and it was as if we had never cut off communication between us. I am grateful that I found one relatively early, I wish you and everyone have at least one. I hope I have been useful to you!

   Short answer - never. I'm worried about the exact opposite - that I'm not going crazy, and I have to consciously watch this whole circus ...