Hello, I am a woman of almost 21 years and I want to have a little man next to me, to whom I can give the love, attention and care that I am capable of. I don't have a brother or sister and cousins, no matter how much I prayed, over my 30s my mother went through 2 miscarriages. My parents had me when they were my age, they are still together, they hold on to each other, they have succeeded professionally and thanks to them I have never missed anything. I have 4 failed relationships behind me and after all the disappointment I have experienced so far I do not know if I will ever meet a partner with whom I can build and if that happens I will be able to relax and allow myself to be attached. I am a student abroad, I work, I study languages separately and I am ambitious to succeed professionally, but I am afraid of what will happen to me personally. Motivation, hard work and determination are leading factors in my professional development, but it all depends on the circumstances to start a family. My parents tell me that I am young, I look good, from a nice and wealthy family and I myself have a lot of achievements so far, but my fears are growing with each passing day. I know it's not normal for my age, so I'm asking for advice. I am constantly making plans for how, if I don't succeed in a few years, I will marry someone I don't have this type of attraction to or I will be fertilized in a specialized institution. I'm afraid that my mother's problem may be hereditary, that I was recently diagnosed with mild cervical dysplasia (I follow the doctors' instructions and feel good, but my anxiety has not gone away). At my age, I'm supposed to have fun, to make a living, and I burden my mind with all these fears and unnecessary backup options. Please spare your offensive comments, no matter how inappropriate it may seem to you, and I would be grateful to hear opinions and advice!
1 big_lava answered
Your thoughts are like a country girl's. Your only biggest goal is to get married at 21. If you are really a student abroad, you will have a much broader worldview, you will dream of becoming a worthy and fulfilled person before you get married and locked up at home with children. As for your answer - wait for the person from whom you will want children, and do not look for someone who will just make them for you.