I Wanna End It

The Story

Hi I want to share my story... Four years ago, for the first time, I took out a quick loan because I had unforeseen expenses and i repaid it. I also had a consumer loan, withdrawn to buy a property of EURO 10,000 and paid it off absolutely regularly. It happened so I started betting, mostly with small amounts of matches, supposedly for fun, supposedly while watching football to be interesting and from there my fallout began.. Total failure... I started not having enough money from salary, i took out new loans, I repaid, I merged into new consumer loans.. I started asking for money on loan that I knew I couldn't pay back in time. I've been in debt with a huge amount of credit. My parents helped me with some of the loans, but I didn't tell the whole truth about how many there were.. I lied to them because I was afraid to admit how indebted I was. I lied to myself that I would find a way to extinguish most things myself and live more peacefully. There's no hope for me, even after I realized and sought help for my addiction to betting. I stopped, but I don't see how I could get better, and I don't even know if I want to, because I'm worth it all... From to... I've lost a lot of my weight out of anxiety and I've come to that point where I don't see the point in living because what I've done to myself and what I'm going through is not life, it's just existence. It hurts the most that I've let a lot of people of mine down. I don't care as much as I care about them. I know that if I put an end to everything, it won't solve my problems, but I've lost the desire to live at all. I share it because it's not an inspirational story, but I hope someone sees it and realizes what it can do to itself if it's in the circle of credit and lies to their loved ones. I don't wish it on even my biggest showers. Be healthy and happy with what you have and don't be greedy. It doesn't lead to anything good

Last Updated
June 09, 2020
Author:
makarena18

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