The story is short: My brother has been annoying me my whole life. My father hit him to stop, because this child is really annoying. But I laughed. I was just grinning. I think my brother really deserved it, but I know that laughing at someone else's pain is anything but normal. I don't think I'm really sorry about that ... I rather feel bad because I know it's not normal at all. I don't want advice, I wouldn't refuse, but I'm not writing this because I want to know what to do. I just want to share because it will eat me up for a long time. I don't hate my brother, well, maybe a little, but I don't want him to get hurt. Or so I think ... Actually, I'm only going to ask you one thing. Do you think that my laughter was due to my anger towards my brother, or is something really wrong with me and I should consult a psychologist? Although I have a slight problem - I don't admit things, even in front of you. For example: I refuse to believe that I have strange habits. I know it, but I refuse to admit it, I'm just looking for an excuse for my actions (I don't kill dogs, don't worry). I wonder if I will really be honest with the psychologist or try to be normal to feel good. Anyway, after sharing I feel more relieved. If it matters, I'm 14, so I might be spoiled, I know.
1 anderson_1992 answered
Hmm .. I don't know what's wrong with you, but from what I read and understood I'm overwhelmed that at least you have a conscience towards your brother and this proves that you more or less care about him. And you are still at such an age that everything around you looks funny. Apparently he is younger than you, it is normal for him to ask for your attention or to do what you do ... To follow you and not leave you alone. If so ... I want you to know that this is normal and you have to love him a lot, because he supports you, admires you and more or less wants to be like you. I don't know what your parents are saying about this.