Hi, I guess I'm not the only one. I feel like a 15-year-old girl who loves so much, but she feels that love is in vain and meaningless. And I'm already 40. It must be stupid. This is my story. I don't know why I decided to write it and share it with "someone" here. With someone I don't know, I don't see, I don't look in the eyes. I will not be able to see the eyes from which I can understand what a fool I am. But what to do - I think this is an internal need - to share. There is a man in my life who came suddenly without me ever expecting. When I was married. He wasn't. And because my husband was the first man in my life, I didn't know there were other types of men. Men who think not only of themselves and their own pleasure, but also of the pleasure of the man next to them. We saw each other very often. We had sex that drove us crazy. We found that we were both doing crazy things for the first time. We had a good time together. I don't think I need to embellish my story with strong words, because whatever I say will be superfluous, given that besides me and he, we felt perfect together. And so for eight years. In those eight years, many things have happened in the meantime. I left my husband because I realized I couldn't live with him anymore. I was tired - either because I compared him to the other, or because I realized that he was never the love of my life and the person I wanted to be with. I do not know. On the other hand, my friend got married. I realized that this marriage happened because of everything else, but not out of love and desire to live together. He didn't tell me. To this day, we are not talking about this or his wife. I just know it. You can say that's what I want. No. Trust me. I know it is. I know he had no choice. Then. Now as well. They still live hard and without any harmony in the family, but ... That is not my topic. I still love him because I adore him. I go to bed and wake up thinking how to make him happy. To be good, to feel comfortable with the world around him. His attitude towards me is the same. It's still the same. But all this love tires me. When I come home from work I am alone. I know that I don't have a person next to me to talk to ... about everything ... With whom to go out and give each other a walk ... The days, rather the minutes and hours we are together, not only to have sex are so few and the rest of the time I see an eternity that will ever end, but I do not know when. Just waiting. This is a deadly expectation. Trust me. Especially on weekends, during the holidays ... I made fleeting and unsuccessful attempts to change things. I tried to sleep so I wouldn't think about him and how much I missed him all this eternity. I realized that I would sleep my life waiting for the prince to come, kiss me and wake me up for a new life in which we will be together. I decided that a new relationship, with a new person, would bring me back to reality and to life. I could not. I can't take anyone with me. However, this is not the way to live. It is very difficult. To expect, to hope that today, or tomorrow, or next week, the person you love and are wonderful with will be by your side. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! I tried to sleep so I wouldn't think about him and how much I missed him all this eternity. I realized that I would sleep my life waiting for the prince to come, kiss me and wake me up to a new life in which we would be together. I decided that a new relationship, with a new person, would bring me back to reality and to life. I could not. I can't take anyone with me. However, this is not the way to live. It is very difficult. To expect, to hope that today, or tomorrow, or next week, the person you love and are wonderful with will be with you. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! I tried to sleep so I wouldn't think about him and how much I missed him all this eternity. I realized that I would sleep my life waiting for the prince to come, kiss me and wake me up to a new life in which we would be together. I decided that a new relationship, with a new person, would bring me back to reality and to life. I could not. I can't take anyone with me. However, this is not the way to live. It is very difficult. To expect, to hope that today, or tomorrow, or next week, the person you love and are wonderful with will be by your side. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! to kiss me and wake me up to a new life in which we will be together I decided that a new relationship, with a new person, will bring me back to reality and to life. I could not. I can't take anyone with me. However, this is not the way to live. It is very difficult. To expect, to hope that today, or tomorrow, or next week, the person you love and are wonderful with will be with you. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! to kiss me and wake me up to a new life in which we will be together I decided that a new relationship, with a new person, will bring me back to reality and to life. I could not. I can't take anyone with me. However, this is not the way to live. It is very difficult. To expect, to hope that today, or tomorrow, or next week, the person you love and with whom you are wonderful together will be by your side. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! or next week, the person you love and have a wonderful time with will be by your side. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love! or next week, the person you love and have a wonderful time with will be by your side. Even for an hour or two ... Tell me what to do? I need an advice! And I'm 40 years old. I thought I could give advice to everyone, about everything ... Obviously not. I seek help! A cure for love!
1 fkirkorov answered
I wonder if such a human delusion is possible? This man has arranged his life and is living it, and you are waiting for a dead letter. He is married! What do you expect from this man. He diversifies his days with you. Get sober. Enough flying. If he wanted to be with you, he would be. I'm not blaming you, I'm just sorry. Have more self-esteem. Close this page of your life and start looking at the faces of the men around you. There's someone around the corner - good, smart and FREE - who is waiting for you to notice. I wish you peace of mind and do not despair!