I Still Have Feelings For My Ex!

Hello! I am the most ordinary teenager! I'm 14. I had a friend in the summer of 2012. It was wonderful! We met at their place. He had a party and we got drunk and met there! It was my most wonderful day! We liked each other and started going out every day. And he proposed to me and we became boyfriends. He is 16 and I studied in another city and only went to the town where he lives in the summer. He realized that I was not studying with him and began to behave very strangely. And one day we quarreled over nonsense on Facebook! He told me that he never wanted to see me again and I was angry with him and said goodbye to him ... I went to bed and didn't get up for a week. In the end, I just wanted to explode. My friends came to us, fixed me and we went out. I saw him in the park from very far away and he saw me and he got up and ran off the bike ... And that was our relationship now he has another, and I am alone ... And I still have feelings for him! And now when I wrote this to you, I was just crying and I don't know what to do, even my mother doesn't help me with such problems, and I can't tell my friends because I'm sure they will tell him ....