I Love My Boyfriend, But He Died In Another

The Story

Hello, writes an 18-year-old girl with a serious friend of 2 and a half years. My friend is my first love, there is no such decent boy. Of course, we have our pulls, but we think about a common future, even children eventually. The problem is that I recently met again a boy from my past that I liked, but we were small and it all ended before it started. The boy is amazing in appearance, very nice, he is quite playful with me, he has no girlfriend. We wrote to each other and there were hints, but I always justified them with a sense of humor. We meet rarely, always by chance. But my problem is that I'm so attracted to him that I'm numb. My stomach shrinks just at the thought of him, when I see him I don't know where I am. But then I meet my boyfriend and I get really pissed. He knows we've seen each other, but nothing more. I don't want answers from people who can't get into my situation, because I've read several such stories and the hatred was unimaginable. I'm not looking for an answer, just advice from people with more life experience than mine. I'm still young, but the boy next to me is amazing. Our relationship is not boring, on the contrary. I feel ashamed of myself, because every time the second young man in question melts me with just a glance, let's put aside all the compliments, because he rarely makes them in principle. He has commented several times on how he wants to be able to flirt with me more than he can afford at the moment, and even when I write about it, my stomach fills with butterflies because of the attraction we have. It's like a magnet, I'm sure he feels it too. What to do because I read several such stories and the hatred was unimaginable. I'm not looking for an answer, just advice from people with more life experience than mine. I'm still young, but the boy next to me is amazing. Our relationship is not boring, on the contrary. I feel ashamed of myself, because every time the second young man in question melts me with just a glance, let's put aside all the compliments, because he rarely makes them in principle. He has commented several times on how he wants to be able to flirt with me more than he can afford at the moment, and even when I write about it, my stomach fills with butterflies because of the attraction we have. It's like a magnet, I'm sure he feels it too. What to do? because I read several such stories and the hatred was unimaginable. I'm not looking for an answer, just advice from people with more life experience than mine. I'm still young, but the boy next to me is amazing. Our relationship is not boring, on the contrary. I feel ashamed of myself, because every time the second young man in question melts me with just a glance, let's put aside all the compliments, because he rarely makes them in principle. He has commented several times on how he wants to be able to flirt with me more than he can afford at the moment, and even when I write about it, my stomach fills with butterflies because of the attraction we have. It's like a magnet, I'm sure he feels it too. What to do? I feel ashamed of myself, because every time the second young man in question melts me with just a glance, let's put aside all the compliments, because he rarely makes them in principle. He has commented several times on how he wants to be able to flirt with me more than he can afford at the moment, and even when I write about it, my stomach fills with butterflies because of the attraction we have. It's like a magnet, I'm sure he feels it too. What to do? I feel ashamed of myself, because every time the second young man in question melts me with just a glance, let's put aside all the compliments, because he rarely makes them in principle. He has commented several times on how he wants to be able to flirt with me more than he can afford at the moment, and even when I write about it, my stomach fills with butterflies because of the attraction we have. It's like a magnet, I'm sure he feels it too. What to do? I'm sure he's experiencing it too. What to do? I'm sure he's experiencing it too. What to do?

Last Updated
November 02, 2020
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sabinas1006

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