Hi, this is my story. Some time ago I met a girl who is not from my city, but when we met I felt the thrill, so to speak. And so it all started, we met at the sea and from there it all started. Maybe then I was a 14-year-old kid who wanted to have a cool chick, but after the sea ended and we broke up (I mean then I liked her too) I had the feeling that I was going crazy if you understand me, I went crazy thinking only about her I waited for her to he writes to me otherwise he just spent the whole day meaningless. And so, until I saw her for the second time, suddenly everything in me calmed down. And the same thing happened again, ruined, I said it desperately and she told me that we could not be together because the long-distance relationship did not end well, I did not want to accept this fact, but then after thinking about things once again I realized that she should be happy I said this and I thought it was over I removed her from the face it was very hard for me I cried like a baby, I hoped she was happy with anyone. 4/5 months passed I fully recovered from the thought of continuing I went to another city to study and play sports and at one point I said to myself, wait, I'll look at her profile, then I saw that she had found a friend, I was very sick, but in the end I wanted it. It didn't take long for me to move into a flat and she wrote to me. How are I and the ordinary gods and we opened the topic of our feelings. I vowed not to tell her that I never loved her again, even though I was terribly in love with her. Then we gradually started writing to each other again (and maybe I made the mistake here, which I'll mention below) she started telling me, that she is not happy with her current boyfriend and she started chewing on me from the inside because I know that this is my girl I will not leave her no matter what happens, but it became a foul .. She told me that she has already broken up with her boyfriend and I was calmly I said to myself, here is my chance now or I never called and however I picked up a boy and I cringed shout hello? He shouts who are you? I told him so and so he called me her boyfriend. And when I heard that I hung up and hung up. I said to myself,, you are a boy, no pussy will play you any pickle, I tightened up and said to myself I will not live in the past at the age of 16, I am your first life. And it took me a long time to change for 6/7 months, until she wrote to me and I didn't want to, I couldn't answer her, I wanted to know why she lied to me the last time, why she wanted to hurt me and she answered that she really hurt me. loves wants to be with me that it would be very complicated and because I still love her and I believed the words and no matter how she hurt me. And I said I don't want to be lied to, but she told me that she was still with that boy and even lived with him because of a problem with her family (her mother was abroad, her father drove her away because they quarreled with her mother). I know that I have a competition where she lives with her, she intends or I don't know, she intended to move out of it to go out and be with me. I shone with happiness until the sky roared with happiness. It was good for me .. For the moment we had to play it secretly in front of her boyfriend so that he wouldn't understand .. She didn't want to live with him, she even broke up with him, but 1 species lives on duty with him because her mother knew the boy who lived with her . And here we met 3 days ago in 1 village we had agreed because she had grandparents, I also saw each other, I was happy. We kissed each other, we played naughty tongues, everything was more than perfect, while how we kissed and caressed me, and the boy who lives with him called, I started to slowly go crazy because I'm afraid he would not return to him and maybe everyone in my place would do that's what we were arguing about. We didn't talk all day, she played me catchy songs because she knew I didn't like them. In the evening we went out and I said that I wanted to talk, we sat down and talked and I realized that if she was with me she would lose her last loved one (her mother) because her mother found out about me and my not very good past. (I was not the perfect child, now I have changed) At that moment I turned black .. we went out I sent her and then I started beating in an el. a box of anger until I broke my arm, but it doesn't matter I got all the malice out of me, then I roared I needed to not accept that this is the end, because I really love her more than anything in this world that night I had surrendered to my head was a mess of roar and I don't want it to end like that. I thought for a while I gathered every single particle in me and I said to myself I have to go on with everything. Here came the final moment that ruined me, I had to send her, I didn't want her to my weak side, crying because of her, etc. I'm on the verge of roaring. When I heard the whistle of the train I started to tremble, I turned around and started to cry I saw the train starting and I felt pain up there on the left my pulse jumped sharply began to blacken me as if someone had stuck a needle in my heart I cried for hours I see her even now when I close my eyes. I just walk aimlessly, I don't know what I want at the moment, I feel empty, hurt, carried away, I don't know what I live for at all, only the small hope that there is a chance to be mine supports me. I don't know how to approach it, it won't last if I remove it from the face again or from anywhere, no matter how strong I pretend to be and say to myself that I won't live in memories, I just can't. I try to be distracted by something, but the fact is that fate does not want to be with her, but I intend to fight I will approach in a different way. I will be like her friend no matter how difficult it will be for me until she gets away from the one who is with him, then she will need time to get used to living alone because I know how it is for two years now. Now I am only supported by this little spark of hope that tells me that there is a chance. I need advice on how to act because now I am very confused, I only think about her, even now when I get up I am waiting for her to write to me. I hope you take my story seriously. Thank you! I hope you take my story seriously. Thank you! I hope you take my story seriously. Thank you!
1 bellatormma answered
He likes you, but he has no choice. I understand how you feel. Good luck, may you ever be together!