I don't know why I decide to pour out my pain here at all, but I need someone to tell me something to make it easier for me. My sweetheart passed away these days, at the age of 12, suffered from breast cancer, later developed pyometra, etc. We allegedly went to the best veterinarian in a big city, who referred us to antibiotic treatment or hormonal treatment and he left us to choose, but did not open a word about surgery because "the patient was an adult." I, for my part, had read some material on hormone therapy, and many people advised that it was unnecessary if the animal would not have a generation after that, and we would only torture it. In practice, the best choice was surgery to castrate. Yes, but only a few months ago she had already been operated on, for a large tumor, and I was very afraid of being operated on again, I said to myself - what if she doesn't survive, how will i live with this guilt? And since we started with antibiotics, she seemed to improve, she was alive for a few months, she ate, she wanted to go for a walk, I also gave her vitamins, good, fresh food, and she didn't show so clearly that she was actually suffering and in pain. I waited for a time to be sure that everything was fine, that the animal was in better condition and to ask the doctor myself what were the chances of a successful operation. In general, you take out the words of some doctors with a hook, they beat you up because of a lot of work, and they don't tell you some important things, and you are in ignorance, and the animal leaves ... Well ... That day it got worse, and it went away in great torment ... We ran like crazy, hurried with the car, the doctors did everything possible and finally sent us home with systems to turn on later. How hopefully I hurried home ... The thought of death never occurred to me. As soon as we arrived ... Despite our care and love, she surrendered after about an hour. My sweet girl .. She came to us when I was 14, like a little black ball, a Rottweiler, with beautiful brown eyes .. I am now 26 .. We both grew up. Just how much she loved me, and how much I will always love her ... I buried a beautiful part of my heart. We don't have a yard, and I buried her with my favorite toy tiger and my favorite leash in the nearby pine grove, where I often go to her ... It's very hard for me, I don't go into her room at all. I constantly remember her every caress, and every time she forgave me if I was rude, and how sad she looked at me in the last days, she said goodbye, looking at me with her sweet eyes. I feel damn guilty for everything I didn't do and was what I did right ...? The hardest thought is: "
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My sun in the gloomy hectic city life has also moved and is now a star in the sky. It's been 4 months but my heart is still shrinking. I still live in every moment while the two of us were dating everywhere. I love him crazy